Dan's Ramblings and Stories

Happy fucking new year.

2011-01-01T21:47:00.001-08:00

I'm writing this with mixed emotions and feelings in me right now. I really don't know how to structure this, since a bunch of shit is running through my head, so I guess the best thing I can do is think as I write.

I've been trying to sleep for about an hour now and I just can't. These thoughts keep coming to me and keep me up thinking, what did I do and how did I end up as the fuck up I am... I've had and got nobody in life, I'm contemplating killing myself more and more every day and I don't have anything to live for. I keep trying to convince myself to keep going since there's a lot more to live for like concerts and new experiences, but to push through all the torment to get to them is harder than it seems. I really want to talk to somebody about this but I know no one will listen. I try telling my family but they keep telling me the same unconvincing crap every time, and it just doesn't get to me. It's definitely NOT normal that I've been thinking of suicide since the 3rd grade, as far as I can remember. In all honesty, this is a fucking horrible start to the new year. First day of 2011 and I'm already in tears and depressed. I don't understand what is wrong with me. Why was I born this way, why do I act the way I do now? How did I get to be such a despised person that no one would give a shit about? I really don't know what else to say here... I'm gonna do something I never do and post a status on facebook pertaining to this, just to see if anyone would pay attention or have the slightest bit of care for me. I highly doubt I'll get any serious responses, if any, but whatever, at this point, I don't give a shit anymore.

All this time I've been hoping for something to come across me to change my perspective on these situations, but I know that sounds way too good to be true. Nothing will make me truly happy, and I'll just be alone my whole life. I came into this world a loser and I'm going to die a loser. I'm just that pathetic. If anyone actually does come across this, let it be known that this could make you feel better about yourself, since no one is as much of a loser and a fuck up as me. I don't know why someone would be wasting their time reading this garbage, but I just wanted to make a statement about it.

That's all I can think of right now. I'm gonna attempt to sleep again, probably listen to Devin Townsend as well, since his music is what helps me through these shitty times. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow.

What a shitty month.

2010-09-23T09:17:00.000-07:00

Well, just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, they did. After feeling like shit for the entire last week, I was really hoping that this week would be so much better. Iced Earth was in town 2 days ago, some of my classes were to be canceled, and everything was just gonna go smooth. Oh was I wrong.

Sunday morning (September 19th) I woke up with horrible stomach ache. I thought it was just from eating too much at work the night before, so a couple trips to the bathroom would just flush it out and I'd feel better. I had planned to get a lot of stuff done that day, so I wanted to fix this as fast as possible. I didn't feel any better after, and later on, I began throwing up. After throwing up a few times, I just did what I could to sleep all day. I had no appetite at all, a horrible stomach ache, and later on that day, it spread to my appendix area. I thought that I should be going to the hospital, but I tried to make it through the night at home. I wasn't planning on going to school the next day for sure.

I woke up at 2 in the morning with the worst pain ever in the stomach and appendix area. I was moaning and attempting to sleep for 4 hours straight, when at 6 A.M. I decided that I needed to go to the hospital. My dad took me and later that morning I was given a CAT scan to see what was up with my stomach. Turns out I had appendicitis. Amazing. When I thought things couldn't get shittier for me, my entire Sunday was wasted, and I had to have my appendix removed and be in the hospital for another day. I also had tickets to Iced Earth the next day, so I couldn't go to that anymore. I also planned on visiting my friend at U of I this upcoming weekend, that's not happening either. All my plans were ruined.

The surgery went good, not like I could remember anything, but I was still in pain throughout the day. I was given a lot of painkillers throughout the day which helped me sleep, so that was good. My relatives came to visit me after the surgery throughout the afternoon which made me feel a lot better. I was supposed to leave Tuesday morning, but the surgeon had to check on me to make sure I was good to go. Of course, he was busy throughout the morning and day so I didn't get discharged from the hospital until 3 in the afternoon. I was in pain all that night, and walking is hard to do, but is becoming easier every day. But now, I can't really do anything. No working out, I don't have enough energy to go back to school yet, so I'm stuck at home all day doing nothing. How wonderful.

I contacted my teachers about quizzes and homework I missed and basically everything is all good. They extended my homework and I'm able to make up any quizzes I missed, so that's great. I have to go back on Friday to take a math exam, but I should be ready to go back by then anyway. Today I plan on getting an oil change for my car and possibly going to the mall to get out of the house. I'm feeling a lot better physically, so I'm able to do more things. By the first or second week of October I should be painless, right before my concert streak begins.

Emotionally, however, I'm feeling like shit. Again, right when I thought things couldn't get shittier, they did. I'm also coming to realize more things that I should have a long time ago. My relatives came all the way from DeKalb to see me in the hospital when they found out about it. Some of my friends found out about what happened, and only 3 of them asked me in some way if I was feeling better. I always knew that family will be with you the rest of your life, and that friends come and go, and every day I'm starting to lose more trust and hope in my friends. It's really becoming more evident that they don't give a shit about me, and I shouldn't be wasting my time with them. Again, I've gone out of my way and will do whatever to help them, but when it comes to me asking for one little thing, it's apparently not worth their time. None of them would want to hang out with me if it was just me and them, and I'm just there as a third wheel. We all planned on visiting a friend in Indiana in a couple weeks and going to a hog roast, but I don't think I'll be coming with. There's no point in me coming if none of them are going to interact with me, if anything they'll probably use me to drive them again and nothing more. I don't think that they would care if I didn't go anyway.

Again, September has been a very shitty month for me, and I really don't think that some freak miracle is gonna happen between now and the end of it that will make me change my mind otherwise. With all the shows I'm going to in October, and my cousin's wedding, I'm sure it will be an awesome month.

Now Playing:
Artist: MGMT
Song: Siberian Breaks
Album: Congratulations

Let's try this again.

2010-09-04T16:26:00.001-07:00

I would say that this is my first post in a long time, but that's a lie. I did have another post on August 17th, but I ended up deleting that for I don't know what reason, probably because I was insecure about it and didn't want anyone who actually does read this to see it. So I'm gonna try this again, and this time, I'm not deleting anything.

School started 2 weeks ago, and as excited as I was to be back, it started off very bad. I'm no longer staying in the dorms, I'm living with my grandparents who live about 5 to 10 minutes away from campus, depending on how stupid people are driving. I'm also lucky enough to park at a restaurant that my family owns just outside of campus for free. As great as saving $10,000 this year on not living in the dorms is, it's kind of a pain in the ass because all my stuff was right there in my room. If I forget anything, I need to go back to my grandparent's house, which is beyond aggravating at this point. Also, my grandparents aren't back from Greece yet, so I've pretty much had no food at all in the house, especially the first week. I was pretty much starving that first week. I've been having to eat at least one meal a day at my family's restaurant, which I feel bad about, but they're cool with it, so it's good I guess. My allergies also hit me recently, so I've been sneezing non stop since that happened. Of course I forgot my Zyrtec at home, 2 weeks in a row, so that pretty much gave me hell. Hopefully I'll remember next time. I was pretty much going through shit that entire first week, and of course, it only got worse. On the Friday of the first week, my laptop decided to stop booting up, so I had to give that to Apple for repair, and that was gone until today. I had to go the entire second week without my laptop, and believe me, it was torture. That's where I planned on doing all my homework and watching TV and stuff, and that was taken away from me for a week, and to make matters worse, one of the first weeks, where I need to set everything up for some of my classes. Basically, everything that could have possibly gone wrong, did. At least I have my laptop back now, and my grandparents are coming back next weekend, so things will hopefully start to look up.

My classes aren't too bad, and my teachers are actually cool, so that's good too. As of now, my grades are actually pretty decent, so all I have to do is work hard and keep them up and I'll be good. I also met a few other people recently that all listen to metal, so hopefully I'll get to hang out with them more often. That's pretty much the only good things that have happened in the past 2 weeks, along with going out with some friends from last year. I think I'm going to do that again this upcoming Thursday, so it should be a good time.

Coming home every weekend is like a miracle for me, since it's so boring at college. Hanging out with friends here is cool, but I've been feeling bothered with that. About 2 years ago, I had to call out all my friends (on Facebook, of all fucking things) because they had been treating me like shit, and I was done taking it. It worked for a bit, but like most people, they just went back to their old habits. I really want to talk to at least one of them back here about it, but of course, I send out a mass text to the people here if they want to hang out or get dinner tonight, and none of them responded. It may be my paranoia talking, but I think they chose not to respond to my text. Again, I've always been the one who they have to treat like crap and ignore, and I don't understand why. One of the things I had in my last post that I deleted was accepting that my life is pretty much miserable and my future looks nothing short of lonely, and I'd have to say that this is one of the contributing factors. I don't do anything wrong, and I get shit for nothing. Thinking about it, if something happened to me, or if I was feeling down about myself, none of my "friends" would help me out or be there for me. I know that because the same thing happened back then, and it's happening now. I remember it clearly, none of them actually apologized to me for treating me like crap. I guess I'll have to accept that as well, along with a bunch of other bullshit in my life right now. All I really have is my family, and if I don't have that, I'll be alone. I'd really have no reason to live by then. No one else would want to support or help me. If I died, would anyone else care? I really don't think so. I'd honestly do anything to help out my "friends", but would they do the same for me?

I guess I'll have to let this pass by. Accepting that I'm going to be alone, miserable, and depressed really sucks, and it's really fucking with my mind, but nothing is proving me wrong about this otherwise. I don't think about suicide as often now because I know it would really affect my family, and them being sad is the last thing I want.

That's all I can really think of in the moment. My thoughts are just all scattered right now, and I'm basically in tears right now. Yes, I know this makes me sound like a baby or a pussy, but really, this is what I'm feeling right now and I need to let it out somehow. Nothing is good right now, everything about this is fucked. I'm really hoping that I feel better soon, but I don't know what it will take for that to happen.

Again, this is not getting deleted. If the right or wrong person sees it, whatever.

Now Playing
Artist: Ayreon
Song: Day Six: Childhood
Album: The Human Equation

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2010-06-18T17:55:00.002-07:00

It's Friday night, I'm bored as fuck with nothing to do, and it's been a pretty crappy day overall. I want to get out some other things I've been feeling since I have nothing else to do.

Recently, I've been wishing that I were born in a different time, specifically in the 1960s. I could be growing up in the hippie movement, the evolution of classic rock, and witness the birth of heavy metal. That's what I want most out of being my age in the late 1970s through the 1980s, to grow up with old school metalheads, the people that I actually fit in most with.

With people today, it's all about what they want out of you. They have standards, and if you want to be friends with them, you have to meet those standards so they won't be embarrassed to be with you. These kind of people are fucking retarded. I'm very glad my friends aren't like that, because they know that they don't have to meet anyone's standards, and I don't either. Back then, I'm sure it was all about being yourself. Hell, I can say that safely after seeing pictures of the metal scene in the 1980s. These people dressed in leather and jeans because it was what they wanted to wear and what expressed them the most, not because they have to. I wouldn't go that far to wearing leather and jeans because I personally don't like it, but even with the way I dress now, which is usually a band shirt and mostly basketball shorts, but jeans at shows, I'd definitely fit in with them. I want the experience to discover Death or Sepultura for the first time back when they first came out in the 1980s. I want to see broken up bands like Death or Coroner live. All music is now is pop or rap garbage, like Miley Cyrus or Lil Wayne. It's atrocious and I wish I wouldn't be growing up with this garbage.

Another important difference is technology. Of course, I have it made now. I have a laptop and a cell phone. Back then none of those were made a necessity. I want the experience to go out and not have a cell phone with me. I can just imagine this world without social networking sites. People wouldn't be freaking out about the stupidest of things, such as who's dating or who's fucking each other, especially when it's online in the public. People today are too dependent on technology. I'm on my laptop a lot, but I can definitely live without it, especially when I could be spending my time at the local record store or concert.

That brings me to my next point, record stores. All it is now is downloading music. I admit, I do it a lot as well, but I don't have the money for these records because all the money I make is going towards college. If I had a job that I was happy with and made a decent living off of, I wouldn't be going to college right now, but I am to find that kind of job. If not, I'd be spending all my money on housing, concerts, and music. And even then, there are no record stores around here. It's all in big stores such as Best Buy, and even then, there are very few metal records there. Again, it's all pop or rap garbage that plagues the music scene here.

Maybe it's where I live. I'm usually the only person around my town to be playing metal out of my car and not give a fuck about what people think of me. It's definitely obvious that this place is not for me and when I'm finished with school, I'm moving out of here as fast as possible to a place that's just right for me. Of course I'll be judged no matter where I go, but I'd rather find a place where I can actually have something in common with more people than no one at all. Thinking about it, I definitely would've had a much better experience if I were a teenager in the 1980s, and I would do anything to go back in time and experience it with all the benefits.

Now Playing:
Artist: Napalm Death
Song: Puritanical Punishment Beating
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Concert Review - The Resurrection Macabre Tour 2010

2010-06-18T17:55:00.001-07:00

Date: Monday, June 14th, 2010

Venue: Reggie's Rock Club, Chicago, IL. Despite so many shows being here, and them being at the most inconvenient times for me, this was my first time seeing one at this venue, and it's a pretty good venue. It's not too small, but not big, a little bigger than the Bottom Lounge. The sound was decent and it could hold a lot more people than who was there that night.

Possibly one of the most bullshit moments of my life happened when going in, though. I had ordered a ticket online the day they went on sale at enterthevault.com, so it gave me a number to show at the door, so it was basically will call. I showed them the number and they were confused to what it was, and I wasn't even on the will call list. So I had to pay the $20 I was going to use for merch to get into the show. It was fucking stupid. That's the last time I use will call for Reggie's. I may as well buy at the door there from now on, the place is in the ghetto, and no one wants to be there!

Bands (from opener to headliner): Sacrificial Slaughter, Enfold Darkness, Vital Remains, Warbringer, Pestilence

Sacrificial Slaughter: I had never heard of these guys before, but they were pretty good. They had lots of energy on stage and performed well. The one thing that bugged me though was that their drummer was god awful. It was just a slow double bass beat with no special tom or cymbal work, despite him having a decent sized kit. He used his entire arm to blast, so his technique was shit as well. Other than him, the rest of the band played great. They were giving out stickers for free so I took one on the way out. I may put it on my car, I'm not sure though.

Enfold Darkness: This was my second time seeing them, the first being at Chicago Deathfest back in November. Because of so many bands being at Deathfest, and me not even hearing of Enfold Darkness then, I couldn't remember what they sounded like, all I knew was that the singer had an epic mustache. Seeing them now with only 4 other bands, they were really good. They play a blackened death metal type of music, with clean interludes in the songs, which sound amazing. I'm definitely looking up more of their music soon and hoping to see them again sometime soon. And as opposed to Sacrificial Slaughter, their drummer is a fucking beast!

Vital Remains: Like Enfold Darkness, this was my second time seeing them, the first being at Deathfest, except this time, I knew of them back then. Like last time, they were amazing! Incredible stage presence, brutal sound, and the singer knew how to get the people moving. There were a ton of stage divers and crowd surfers halfway into their set, and security was getting pissed. Like last time, they played about 4 to 5 songs, but each one was five to seven minutes long. I'm looking forward to seeing these guys at Summer Slaughter in August, despite that they're only gonna be playing a 25 minute set because they're opening, and I still don't know how that happened, considering they're the oldest band on the lineup.

Warbringer: They weren't even headlining and everyone was there to see them, some not even for Pestilence! This was my third time seeing them, and like the past two times, they prove more why they are the best band I've seen live. Incredible energy and stage presence is an understatement, and getting the crowd moving is an easy task for them. They opened up with Jackal, Living in a Whirlwind, Severed Reality, and Total War, like the other two times I saw them, and played some different ones after. I can't remember the order for sure, but they played Prey for Death, Systematic Genocide, At the Crack of Doom, Beneath the Waves, and closed with Combat Shock. Before they played At the Crack of Doom, they decided to get a wall of death going! There had to be at least 50 people in that, because it was crazy! At the Crack of Doom was a very good song to have a wall of death going on. For 45 minutes straight, I was moshing, headbanging like crazy, or catching a breath from the stomach cramp I got by the time Severed Reality came on. It was basically my second workout of the day. After they finished, a significant amount of people left. Warbringer really needs to do a headlining tour, possibly with Gama Bomb or Evile. I really want to see these guys again when they come back with Nevermore, not just because they are incredible live, but because after this tour, they're going to be working on their third album, and are gonna play some new songs in the fall. Unfortunately, they are coming to Chicago on October 29th, my dad's 50th birthday, so there's a very good chance I'm not going to be able to go. Oh well, there's always the next tour, hopefully a headlining show.

Pestilence: I had heard that they were awful at Maryland Deathfest, but when they played here, they weren't bad at all. I was up front for the first half of their set list, before getting shoved against the front railing and nearly getting my rib cage crushed. Their sound was good, and their stage presence wasn't bad at all. One thing I really liked was that the bass guitar was turned up very high, because Jeroen Paul Thesseling is a monster on that 6-string fretless. Mother of God, that amazed me. There's not much more to say about them, other than they were better than I thought they would be. It was good to see them back in the states after nearly 20 years, and it'd be cool if they came back again.

Overall, it was a great show. I hung out with cool people the whole night, got a Warbringer sticker to put on my car, and had a very fun time. Too bad that this is the only show in June that I'm going to.

Next show: Municipal Waste on July 10th? It's a huge maybe. If not, then Iron Maiden on July 18th for sure!

Concert Review - The Facemelter Tour 2010

2010-05-27T17:46:00.001-07:00

Date: Wednesday, May 26th, 2010

Venue: Clearwater Theater, West Dundee, IL. This was my second time seeing a show here, and I honestly don't like it very much. The sound isn't very good and it's a pretty small venue. The last time I was here, the security guards were enforcing rules like dicks, but that's because the show was packed that time. This time there weren't many people, so they were more lenient. At least it's a straight shot from my house, but THE FUCKING CONSTRUCTION BLOWS.

Bands (from opener to headliner): Art of the Flesh, Conducting from the Grave, Annotations of an Autopsy, Misery Index, Arsis, Dying Fetus

Art of the Flesh - They weren't on the flier, so I assume that they're a local band. They were actually pretty good. Great stage presence and their members were good at what they did. Not much to say but I enjoyed them.

Conducting from the Grave - I'm not a fan of deathcore at all, especially when deathcore bands play live, but these guys were pretty damn good live. Incredible stage presence, and they knew how to get the crowd moving. I'm not a fan of their music at all, but they were very good live, and they're very nice in person too.

Annotations of an Autopsy - Dear fucking God HORRIBLE. Conducting from the Grave actually entertained me. These bro fucks did not. I was facepalming the entire time at every hxc br00tal xXBREAKDOWNXx. As if they weren't bad enough in the studio, live is just embarrassing, if not more. Their singer was wearing a bandanna over his fucking eyes, he looked like a god damn ghetto Mexican. And the worst part is, they're from England! I thought the English produced amazing music! Holy shit, I never want to see these guys again, I'd rather fucking see Suffokate, at least it's fun to mess with their singer.

Misery Index - I had never heard of these guys before, but they were really good. Amazing stage presence, fast and heavy songs to get the crowd moving and the heads banging, and just overall nuts. The bad part about it was that they had gear issues and had to cut their set short, which was pretty disappointing. I'm gonna have to check these guys out at some point, their studio stuff sounds great as well.

Arsis - I've wanted to see these guys for a while now, and I missed the last time they came around with Arch Enemy and Exodus because of work. I had heard bad things about them live, but they were actually great as well. They played Return, Forced to Rock, A March for the Sick, We Are the Nightmare, A Diamond For Disease, Sightless Wisdom, and The Sadistic Movement Behind Bereavement Letters. I may be forgetting a song there, but that's what I remember. I met the bassist and talked to the guitarist for a while after they played, they were really nice guys. I asked the guitarist (Nick) about any upcoming tours in the U.S. and he said he couldn't reveal anything, but all he told me was it was gonna be in September. He made it sound like it was gonna be a sick tour, so I can't wait for that!

Dying Fetus - This was my third time seeing Fetus, and like the last two times, they were absolutely nuts! They opened up with Praise the Lord (Opium for the Masses), and of course, DAT RIFF made the entire place headbang along to it. They got the place moving on nearly every song, and my neck is sore right now from headbanging the entire time. I wouldn't put them in the top 5 best live bands I've seen, but they're definitely in the top 10 or 15. From what I remember, along with Praise the Lord, they played (in no order) Your Treachery Will Die with You, Killing on Adrenaline, Skull Fucked, Your Blood is My Wine, Grotesque Impalement, Epidemic of Hate, Conceived into Enslavement, Ethos of Coercion, Homicidal Retribution, One Shot One Kill, and closed with Pissing in the Mainstream and Kill Your Mother, Rape Your Dog. It was an incredible set list, much longer than the last two times because they were supporting acts at those shows.

Overall, the show was great! Most of the bands were incredible, and I had one hell of a time! I will spend the rest of my day waiting for my neck to recover.

And the biggest highlight of the show - Drunk people outside fucking with people and cars passing by before the show - That made my day!

Next show: Pestilence on June 14th!

Concert Review - Volcom Tour 2010

2010-05-23T16:35:00.000-07:00

Date: Wednesday, May 19th, 2010

Venue: Canopy Club, Urbana, IL. I had never been here before, and it was 2 1/2 hours away, but it was a pretty decent venue. The sound wasn't top notch, but decent enough to enjoy the bands. All shows here are 18 years of age and over, so that's a plus on my part. There was a big screen in the background where bands would have album artwork, band logos, or a movie playing.

Bands (from opener to headliner): Valient Thorr, Baroness, Between the Buried and Me, Mastodon

Valient Thorr - They came on at 6:30, the time it was supposed to start (A metal show starting on time, no fucking way!) They're not a metal band, more hard rock, but still very good! I had started listening to them only a couple of months before this show. Their stage presence was amazing and their execution of the songs was nearly flawless. The frontman of VT was really into the show and pulled a Trevor Strnad by taking off his shirt 2 songs into the set. I met the singer at the merch booth after the show and he was a very nice guy. Unfortunately they didn't have any small patches, just back patches. I definitely would've used them as the back patch for my jacket if I didn't have my Atheist one already. I'm hoping VT comes back on their next tour, I'd love to see them again!

Baroness - I had never listened to these guys before the show, but they put on a nice set. They're more of Mastodon's style, which is sludge/progressive metal. Like Mastodon, they didn't interact with the crowd at all and made their songs lead into one another until the end when they thanked everyone. I started listening to them just yesterday and I'm impressed by their studio efforts as well. Maybe they'll come back as another supporting act or even headlining. Either way, I'd like to see these guys again.

Between the Buried and Me - This was my second time seeing BTBAM, and once again, they put on one hell of a show! Compared to their headlining show, the sound wasn't as good this time, but it's hard to top the House of Blues' sound system, but the sound wasn't bad this time. The one thing I was very happy about was that because the show was 18+, there would more than likely not be any hardcore dancers, unlike last time. And what do you know? I was right! People started mosh pits when they came on, and people were getting pushed to the front, which is a big no no at shows. Mosh pits should be kept in just one area, and it is usually like that for most shows. But here, there were morons pushing people up front, getting people pissed off. Aside from the crowd, BTBAM overall was amazing! Their set list was pretty strange in my opinion, consisting of Fossil Genera - A Feed from Cloud Mountain, Prequel to the Sequel, Backwards Marathon, Disease, Injury, Madness, and Mordecai. It was great to see them playing something from The Silent Circus, so I was very happy with them. Unfortunately the next tour they have is The Cool Tour, which isn't very cool because 80% of the lineup are screamo garbage bands. Hopefully they'll be back on another good tour, headlining or supporting.

Mastodon - The moment everyone was waiting for! This was my third time seeing Mastodon, the first time being at Mayhem Festival 2008, where their sound was awful. I couldn't comprehend anything that was going on. The second time was with Dethklok back in October of 2009, and they were much better there. The Aragon Ballroom's sound isn't very good, but they managed to sound decent. This time, the sound was more clear than the second time, and with a much longer set because they were headlining. Like the last time, they had a trippy movie going on in the screen behind them to go with Crack the Skye, which they played in it's entirety (again). I love that album, and in my opinion, it's one of the best albums, if not the best album of 2009. To see it played live is one hell of an experience. After they finished that, they took a small break and came back with a second set consisting of their older works. In order, they played Crusher Destroyer, Crystal Skull, I Am Ahab, Circle of Cysquatch, Aqua Dementia, Capillarian Crest, Iron Tusk, March of the Fire Ants, and closed with Blood and Thunder. This is one hell of a set list if you ask me.

Overall, the show was worth the longer drive and I had an amazing time! I only picked up a small Mastodon patch since I already have a Mastodon shirt and Between the Buried and Me shirt and they didn't have any other patches for me to get. This is one of those shows where all the bands performed great, and I hope all of them come back sometime in the near future!

I did see Gorod at a small club the next day, but it was such a small show that I'm not going to bother writing about it.

Next show: Dying Fetus on May 26th!

It's amazing how one death can impact the world.

2010-05-16T18:47:00.000-07:00

As expected, it's been quite a while since I've updated this blog. I've got a lot to talk about here, and I may as well because I'm actually home tonight being bored rather than hanging out with friends or working.

As I said there, now that summer is here, I've been going out a lot more with good friends. It's always a blast being with them and there will be a lot more to come later on. I've been coming home a lot later, sometimes being as late as 3 A.M. It's weird for me because I go to bed earlier than that! But either way, it's always a great night with them. I know I'm gonna be coming home that late when my friend and I go to see Mastodon in 3 days. It's still gonna be a fun time, nonetheless.

Like I said in my last post, I would go over a summary of my freshman year at college, so here goes...

I didn't really know what to expect. Anything could happen there, so I basically expected the unexpected. What I got was pretty good, if I'd say so myself. My floor was cool (at first...), I met some great people and I was just having a fun time. Over time though, it started to get very boring. I had no idea why I would stay there on weekends because really, I found out myself that I really don't like to party, and that's all there is to do there on weekends. Video games were absolutely boring at this point, and most of our floor lost almost all interaction with each other. I was noticeably gaining weight, and that's when I started to go to the gym. I'd normally go once a week just to miss the Hall Council bullshit, but I started going every night at 8 P.M. It was a great way to kill time because I'd have nothing to do at night after dinner, and it was very beneficial. I started this near the end of first semester and carried on through the whole second semester. I also changed my eating habits. I'd eat a lot during lunch or dinner time, inevitably leading to more weight gain. I cut out the big eating and tried to eat smaller meals throughout the day in attempt to raise my metabolism. It wasn't too bad for me to do, but continuing it was very hard because I'd be busy some days and not have access to snacks or any other food I would want. I'm still trying these methods today and working out more. I got my L.A. Fitness membership back and I'm going any morning that I'm free or not lazy. I'd much rather work out at night than in the morning, but I guess I'll have to live with it now since I'm busy most nights. So basically, to sum up my first year at college: First semester: Decent start, but pretty lame on some parts because I didn't know what to expect. Second semester: Awesome! I listened to music for most of it (Seriously, I had my headphones in my ears more than I didn't in a day) and met a lot of people. While I did meet a lot of people at college, I'm afraid I could only call a few of those my friends. These friends are awesome. Without them, I wouldn't have known a lot of things or done other things, such as going to possibly one of the best shows of my life, or getting into awesome bands. If by some divine miracle, they end up reading this, they know who they are and are awesome. I'm really looking forward to next semester!

In sadder news, a legend has been taken from this world. Ronnie James Dio, the inventor of the devil horns hand gesture, one of the most important figures in music, and the bearer of quite possibly the best voice in all of metal music, died today in the afternoon. He was battling stomach cancer for quite some time now, but what was really confusing was that there were reports of him having great health recently. This was very unexpected, even with the rumors of his death last night. Apparently some site said that he had died, causing fans to be very confused, but Dio's wife confirmed that he was indeed alive, but not in great health. She then confirmed later in the day the very unfortunate news...

I can't say I was a huge Dio fan. I loved Holy Diver and his work with Black Sabbath, but never got around to his other albums. Maybe I'll check it out when I have time. But from what I did listen to, I knew that he definitely did have the greatest voice in metal and influenced nearly all the bands I listen to to do what they do now. After Dio's death announcement on Blabbermouth.net, every single article following were from various band members mourning his death. As the title states, it's amazing how one death can impact the world. I never got to see him perform with Heaven & Hell when they came, but I couldn't go otherwise due to work and restrictions, which is pretty sad. I would've loved to see him and the remaining members of Black Sabbath live.

It's a very sad day in metal, and while Dio may be gone from this world, his soul and voice will live on throughout history and keep fueling metal, inspiring new and old bands worldwide. Rest in Peace, Ronnie James Dio. You were one hell of a musician, and you will be missed by many.

\m/

So that's all I really have to say here. Today's been a very boring day, and the death of one of the biggest metal icons didn't help at all. I'm currently learning the 24 minute epic The Odyssey by Symphony X on guitar. I may not be able to get it done soon, but I will try and possibly get parts of it on video. Other than that, here's to an amazing summer coming up.

Now Playing:
Artist: Morbid Angel
Song: Desolate Ways
Album: Blessed are the Sick

I would not expect such a beautiful song to come from a band like Morbid Angel. Regardless, it's an amazing song.

Bored

2010-05-05T12:08:00.000-07:00

It's been a few days since I updated this, but as the title implies, I am incredibly bored right now so I need something to kill time.

The "Troll Rough Draft" post that I put up a couple days ago was something that I posted on the Guitar Hero/Rock Band forum board, Scorehero (SH), recently. I posted it on here to show my friend and see how he liked it, and he did, and I got mostly positive feedback from it on SH, with the exception of one of the people I used to troll with, who of course chooses to hide with a fake account, but that just goes to show the incredible irony there, so it's hilarious. I'm glad I got that out and made peace with the people I shouldn't have provoked in the first place.

Aside from that, the reason I'm bored is that I only had two finals today, COMS and German. I didn't study one bit for COMS because I was busy with other things yesterday, so I doubt I did well on it, but German went fine, despite that I didn't study for that at all either. I have Geography and Theater finals tomorrow, and I'm just really worried about Geography. I have to get a 71% on the final to get a C in the class, but I don't know if that will happen considering I average a high D when it comes to exams in that dumb class. Theater, on the other hand, will be nothing more than a breeze because my teacher literally gave us the final. It's composed of 50 questions taken word for word off of the 3 previous exams, and we went over them in class last week. After that's done, I'm heading home for good!

Going back to the boredom, after I finished my German final at 11 A.M. this morning, I had to finish my English portfolio and turn it in. I've been doing nothing productive since (aside from this, I guess). I've also been listening to Opeth's discography all day. 9 albums, each at least an hour long, so it's definitely lasting the whole day. Right now I'm on Blackwater Park, the 5th album from them. I must say, after listening to their first album, Orchid, all the way through, I've really appreciated it more. But I love every album from them, so this was a good discography to listen to to kill time.

My plans for tonight are to just work out and study a bit for Geography. I'm not gonna go overkill on it, that's what fucks me over. I did the opposite for my math final and that went well, so I'm taking the same approach there.

And that's about it. I really can't wait for tomorrow. I'll probably put up a post about freshman year overall tomorrow night, but that's if I have time.

Now Playing:
Artist: Opeth
Song: The Funeral Portrait
Album: Blackwater Park

Troll rough draft

2010-05-03T17:57:00.000-07:00

First off, moderators, if this is in the wrong place, feel free to move it to the appropriate area. However, all I ask is that you please don't lock this. This took a quite the time to think of and write, and I'd love to see whoever reads this and their feedback, positive or negative. Thank you.

I'm sure a few people, maybe more remember who I am. Once talented Rock Band player, who with inevitable notice took a turn for the worse with my attitude towards the community I was once part of. By that I mean I would waste countless hours doing what I could to displease the, as I once referred to, "fruits" of the Guitar Hero/Rock Band (mostly Rock Band) community just for my own pleasure and fun. Why did I do this? That's what I'm here to talk about, and why it wasn't worth a single second of my time, and why it shouldn't, and will not be, for anyone else.

The first sign of this was when I stopped playing Guitar Hero/Rock Band, and pretty much video games altogether. Of course, like several of the people on this site, I eventually got bored of competitive play and pretty much the game overall. I started to focus more on real life, but at the same time, stayed with the still competitive community online. At this point, seeing people still playing the game competitively was a joke to me, and I felt the need to make fun of and laugh at them for it. This was around the spring of 2009 and lasted until the end of the year, if I remember correctly. I'd be on IRC and in certain streams or chats just making fun of people, along with others. I'd even be on here or on AIM doing the same thing, as you can see from my perma rocker status, which I got intentionally. At the time, I thought that was hilarious and that I was the better person for doing it. Almost a year later, I brought this up in my mind despite me not having any interaction or single thought of the community while focusing on my real life, only to realize now that it was a bad mistake on my part.

Why did I do this? Why does anyone do this? By "this," the best I could say about it is to "troll." Why do we troll for our own pleasure? I've always been against sadism, and I realized then that I was a huge hypocrite for doing such a thing. These people do have lives as well, so what if they play a video game competitively? Maybe they like to be competitive, or just have a lot of fun doing so. Making fun of them does not make me the bigger man or make me have more of a life doing so. But I thought the opposite whilst doing so, and it was a very stupid move on my part.

I had a lot of friends from this community, and while I did not know them in real life, they were still very cool people to talk to and play video games with. Because of my actions, it cost the friendship of these people on here, and even though it's best not to go online to talk to people you don't know in real life, these people would still be considered my friends. I had panic attacks and a depressive personality back then and I would talk to these people, and they would talk to me and help me. That is what a real friend is for. To those that I actually offended and ruined friendships with, I am truly sorry for what I did, it was a stupid and wrong mistake on my part and I assure that it won't happen again.

This realization, in my opinion, comes from maturity. Once you grow older, at some point you'll start to realize how people feel if you put yourselves in their shoes. My word of advice to anyone that actually reads this: Don't waste your time trolling or trying to make someone's life miserable, both online and especially in real life. If you have a close friendship with someone, whether it be online or in real life, don't ruin it because of peer pressure or any other reason.

It's been several months since I've been on this forum board, and even longer since I've touched my Xbox 360 console. With all this being said, I'll be on here from time to time again, but more than likely not on Xbox Live because I've been very busy since my first year of college started and will continue to be busy.

I hope everyone who clicked on this topic read this all the way through and understands what mistakes I made, how I learned from them, and why you shouldn't do the same thing as me. Thank you for your time, and please comment if you have something to say.

- Dan, GarageMetal468

Quite possibly the worst day of my life so far?

2010-05-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

I'm writing this at about 9:30 A.M. on May 1st. April 30th, 2010, was probably the worst day of my life so far. I need to get this out.

It starts off with my sister waking me up at 6:30 in the morning telling me to get her Potbelly at noon and drop it off at her school. Now, I tend to think, and it usually ends up happening, that if a day starts off like shit, it will continue to be shit throughout the day. Waking up at 6:30 after going to bed at 12:30 isn't my day. So I go back to bed and wake up around 9:30 I believe. The grades for that geography exam I took on Thursday were up, so I decided to check if I got that 74% so I don't have to take the final and if my 3 hours of studying paid off. And wouldn't you know? I got a fucking 68%. Now I have to take the final and get at least a 72% on it to get a C in the class. That's some bullshit, along with what was to come throughout the rest of the day.

I was stuck running errands for my parents. I had to go to the DMV to get license stickers for my dad's car and the mall to get coffee for my mom. On the way to the DMV, I decide to take the long street to get there, which for some reason is STILL under construction, so I was backed up for a pretty long time. Not only that, but there was no way I could make it to Potbelly and get my sister her food and drop it off at her school, so that was pretty disappointing. So at a green light, I'm stopped (yeah, construction is the best) and I put my arm out the window and I feel a sharp pain in my forearm. I got stung by a fucking bee. For the first time in my life, I get stung by a bee. This could have all been avoided if I took the back road to the DMV, but I was a dumb ass and decided to take the straight shot, under construction forever street. After I did get the stickers, I took the way back home that I should have taken on the way there.

After I stopped back home to drop off some stuff, I went off to the mall to get my mom's coffee. I decided to get Panda Express for lunch while I was there, and I also got a chiller from Gloria Jean's while I was at it. Of course, those two should not be combined and I got horrible heartburn after wards. I thought I was going to throw up. After that, for some dumb reason I went to Best Buy to look around, which was very pointless, especially with the heartburn I had, so I left to go to 7/11 and get a Sprite to calm down the heartburn. After that, I just chilled at home until I had to work. And it only got worse from there on.

It was a pretty shitty day outside. It was very windy and the sky was a dark gray/blue, so it was inevitably going to rain. This left the restaurant empty for a while, so one of the other bus boys left early. Soon after he did, the place started to get packed with only me and another bus boy to take care of everything. Of course, I'm getting bitched at left and right to do shit while I have about 100 more things to do, as if I'm not doing enough. On top of that, my sack of shit boss was there and was bitching at me as well. The worst fucking thing he was doing was telling me to smile as I work. Let's point out what's fucking wrong here in a list.
1. No one else is smiling. What makes me so special?
2. I would tell him about the shitty day I had, but I was so busy with other things, I didn't have time to and he probably wouldn't give a shit anyway because he's a dickhead.
3. With all the things I'm doing, how the fuck am I supposed to smile while I'm doing it?
4. He's drinking with his "friends" (acquaintances and people that don't give a shit about him, for a more accurate description). Of course he's having a blast doing jack shit while I'm working my ass off. Fuck him.

Even worse is that throughout the day, when something does go right and I think that my day is going to get better, nope. It gets worse. What a better way to screw me over than get my hopes up and have them crushed? What's even more weird is that if I remember correctly, the first day of April was a shitty day for me, and the last day was even shittier. Aside from the Overkill and Cannibal Corpse shows, April was a fucking awful month. Today is the first day of May, and other than getting woken up by my family being loud at 8:00 A.M. (no surprise), it started off pretty nicely with the new As I Lay Dying album getting leaked. I listened to it all the way through, and I must say, the more heavy and brutal approach they've taken worked out well. It's an awesome album! The metal albums of 2010 are really good so far, and there's still Morbid Angel, Atheist, Necrophagist, and a lot more to come!

I really hope May doesn't suck, especially as much as April did. It should be a good month though, what with the Mastodon and Dying Fetus concerts, and being out of school for the majority of the month. I should probably start studying for my math final at some point, but I actually plan on having fun today! I'm helping my friend record a satire for one of his finals for his classes, and I'm seeing the remake of A Nightmare on Elm Street tonight! I can already guess that the remake is going to blow, but A Nightmare on Elm Street was one of my favorite movies, so I want to see what they can do. I'm also going with a good friend, so it should be fun.

And that's about it. April can suck a dick because May is here, and it's going to be good. I have to mow the lawn soon, but thankfully I got Sadus' discography, so I have something to listen to as I mow the lawn, which is good. I'm probably gonna get a Monster after that to wake up, so today should be an awesome day!

Now Playing:
Artist: Sadus
Song: Twisted Face
Album: Illusions

Concert Review - The Evisceration Plague Tour

2010-05-01T07:29:00.001-07:00

Venue: The House of Blues, Chicago, IL. I've been here a number of times, and the sound quality is very good, but because of the 9:30 curfew, the show has to start early which I don't like very much.

Bands (from opener to headliner): Lecherous Nocturne, Skeletonwitch, 1349, Cannibal Corpse

Lecherous Nocturne: I had never heard of these guys before, but they did good live. I'm more than likely not gonna check them out because I didn't like their music, but like i said, their stage presence was good.

Skeletonwitch: This is what got the people moving! One of the bands that I can safely say are much better live than in the studio! They played a long enough set for people to enjoy and everyone was having fun during their set. The crowd surfing started (I joined in later on) and overall they kicked ass as usual! I hadn't seen these guys since The Black Dahlia Murder in October, and I think it'll be a while before I see them again, which sucks, but I'll still be looking forward to the next time they're coming around!

1349: I knew these guys were a black metal band from Norway, but I had never listened to them before until now. They were actually really good! A lot of people loved them and I'm actually listening to their Hellfire album now! But back to the show, this is where things got brutal, and not just the band. There were 2 fights during their set, security was all over the place at that point. This is why morons who have short tempers should not be in the pit. But overall, they were really good and I'm probably gonna check out more of their stuff later on!

Cannibal Corpse: And the moment we were all waiting for! They had a much longer set list than the last time I saw them, when they weren't even headlining! They changed it up a lot from the 2 previous times I saw them, which was a great thing because some of their songs haven't been played for a long time, such as The Cryptic Stench. Again, there were some jackasses picking fights with people in the pit for no reason but security took care of them, so the pits were free of morons. I went in for a good portion of the set, and now I have bruises on both of my arms, and my nose and hip were nailed pretty hard so if I apply pressure to there then I can feel it a little. I've said this before and I'll say it again: Cannibal Corpse fans don't fuck around. But really, those pits were incredibly fun, and I think I burned more calories from that show than I do working out a night!

Overall, it was an amazing show! I met up with a few people I knew, saw some people from previous shows, and met new people as well. Hopefully Cannibal Corpse or Skeletonwitch will be back in Chicago soon enough. Next concert: Mastodon on May 19th!

Concert Review - Killfest 2010

2010-04-28T08:31:00.000-07:00

Venue: The Rave/Eagles Club, Milwaukee, Wisconsin. I've never been here before, but I've heard really good things about it, and it wasn't a bad venue after all! They don't care if you crowd surf or do anything really, so that was good for me, especially during Warbringer! However, cups of water were $1 each which was pretty lame in my opinion, considering that most places give out water for free. Also, it's still legal to smoke inside public buildings in Wisconsin until July (I think July), so I reeked of cigarette smoke after the show, causing my car to smell like one big ash tray for a day after. But aside from those two, the venue was great!

Bands (in order of when they played from first to last): Woe of Tyrants, Evile, Warbringer, God Dethroned, Vader, Overkill. Lazarus A.D. were supposed to play but they had to drop off a bunch of dates for some reason that I don't know, this date included. The show's last.fm page also said that a band called Lightning Swords of Death were supposed to play, but there was no sign of them at all.

Woe of Tyrants: I had never listened to WoT before, but they put on a good show. There were a few people that were really into them, but for the most part no one really did much. They did get a good response from the crowd though, myself included.

Evile: This was my second time seeing Evile, and once again, they put on a hell of a show! The frontman's mic wasn't working so the bassist was nice enough to give him his working mic. There were sound problems galore throughout the show. But aside from that, they are much better live than in studio in my opinion. What was better was that pits were actually going on during their set! This was great because when I saw them with Kreator about a month ago, no one did shit for them, despite them kicking ass live. After their set they were chilling at their merchandise booth signing stuff and taking pictures. I got a patch from them and a picture with the band!

Warbringer: To be honest, this was the one band that I wanted to see the most out of the entire lineup, and dear God did they put on one hell of a performance! People were going crazy in the pit and all around during their set, myself included! Me and one other person were the only people to crowd surf during their set, but I was the first to actually make it up to the front! The first time I did was during Severed Reality, and right when I got to the front, the song got to the point where the singer does a long scream at the beginning, so I was being stared in the eye by John Kevill screaming about an inch away from me. Crazy shit! They are also much better live than in studio and always put on one hell of a show! I met John Kevill (singer) and John Laux (guitarist) after they played. They were really nice guys!

God Dethroned: At this point in the show I was exhausted as hell from Evile and Warbringer, so I just chilled in the back during their set. They had good stage presence and all, but kind of bored me. Maybe it was just me being tired.

Vader: I was anticipating them as well, and what I got was very disappointing. Now, they did have amazing stage presence, they did play loud and fast as expected, the pits were great for them (I was chilling right outside of them for the rest of the show), so overall they were great live. The disappointing part? THEY PLAYED FIVE, 5 FUCKING SONGS. What the hell? They were the the 2nd to last band and the fucking openers play longer than they do? And there was no word why! It could have been sound problems for all I know. Hopefully on their next tour they'll play a full set. I've seen them once before when they headlined so I've already experienced it, but god damn, this was a let down.

Overkill: And the moment everyone was waiting for! As expected, they were louder and faster than in studio live, and holy crap was it amazing! It's amazing how after 25 years they can still perform better than on records! The set list was a wide range of material, from Feel the Fire to Ironbound and in between. The pits were as crazy as they could have got and there was a huge rise in crowd surfers. They were probably going to play more after their "last song," but my friend and I left so we could just get out of there early before the traffic really hits. But from what we watched, it was one hell of a performance! If they ever tour again in the future, I'm definitely going back!

So overall, the show was amazing! It was probably one of the best I've been to, what with meeting bands, new people and just having a hell of a good time the whole time! Next concert for me: Cannibal Corpse on April 29th!

Another hiatus of posting

2010-04-28T08:09:00.001-07:00

It's become obvious that I've gotten lazy with this blog, but I'm bored now and I don't have class until an hour from now, so I figured I'd write something.

Freshman year of college is almost over! I just have a dumb Geography exam tomorrow morning and then it's finals next week. What I'm really excited for though is the Cannibal Corpse concert tomorrow! I've been waiting for while to see Cannibal Corpse and Skeletonwitch live again, so I'm glad it's finally here! It's not supposed to rain tomorrow in Chicago, but here's to hoping that doesn't change. I plan on picking up Cannibal Corpse and Skeletonwitch patches there, and maybe a shirt if I like what I see and it's $20 or less.

I'm gonna link this blog in my signature on the Metal Archives forum in hope that people will read this. I MIGHT link this on facebook, not that anyone would look, but it's a thought. There's another forum board I'm debating on going back to, but I'm not sure about that yet. These aren't big decisions at all, but if I do get really bored one day I'll consider doing it. And starting tomorrow, I (hopefully) don't think I'll be bored for a while.

Starting off with Cannibal Corpse tomorrow, I'm working on Friday and Sunday, and hanging out with people on Saturday. The next week is finals, so I'll be busy studying then. I'm only going on campus on Monday for about 2 hours for my math final and then going back home because I have no finals on Tuesday, but I have 2 on Wednesday, at 8 A.M. and another one at 10 A.M. I also have to drop off a portfolio for English which shouldn't take long at all. Provided I do good on my Geography exam tomorrow, which I'm going all out to study for, I'm not taking the final. Other than that, I just have my Theater final at noon (I believe) that day, which my teacher basically gave to the class, so that's a guaranteed A there. After that's done, I'm taking whatever I have left back home and I am done!

So that's basically all next week. After that, it's summer for me! The only May concert I have planned out is Mastodon. I'm going with a friend, maybe another to that, so that's good for me. I plan on going to Dying Fetus on the 26th as well. I don't have the ticket yet, but it's only $19 for it, so it's definitely worth going. It's at the Clearwater Theater, which is a horrible venue, but it's only a straight shot from my house, so it's not a bad drive. Hopefully it won't be raining like the last time I went.

That's about it for now. I'm gonna post concert reviews on here as well as on my Facebook, so I'll post the Overkill review on here next. Maybe I'll post more stuff like this on here, but we'll have to see.

Now Playing:
Artist: Arsis
Song: I Speak Through Shadows
Album: United in Regret

Haven't updated this in a while...

2010-04-04T18:54:00.000-07:00

As the title says, I haven't really been up to date with this blog. I've really gotten lazy and not feeling like writing in here, but now is an exception.

The past week was utter shit. It went by so slow, and all my homework, tests and quizzes hit me in the fucking head Thursday and Friday. The only good thing about it was that the weather was amazing. This week is supposed to have mixed weather, but I shall see. Hopefully it goes by fast because I'm finally seeing Overkill this Saturday! I remember counting down the days since they were in the hundreds. The weather there is supposed to be decent, but I just checked it now, so it may change.

This week hopefully won't be bad. The weather being shitty may or may not have an impact, but at least I don't have any huge homework projects or tests this week.

One thing I've been thinking about in my mind is relationships. I have never had a girlfriend before, and as pessimistic as this sounds, I've concluded that it's very improbable that I'll ever have one. This is entirely my fault. To sum it up, I basically used to be a try hard bitch the first 17 years of my life. It took me until the summer to realize that I shouldn't cry about everything and not care about what people think of me, which is what always got in the way of what's important. I sometimes wish that I could go back in time with my mindset now and change my future, bettering or making it worse, but now that I think about it, who I was back then made who I am now.

How does that have to do with relationships. Well obviously, no girl would want who I was back then, and me having short hair making me look like a pedophile terrorist didn't make me good looking at all. It didn't help that I was desperate for a girlfriend too. Now, I and many of my close friends have seen improvement in me altogether, and I've just dropped the need for a girlfriend. Why? I like being single to be honest, I like having money whenever I have it, and who knows what will happen if I do happen to find someone. It's a huge risk that I don't think I'm ready to take. But here are the big obstacles: I have incredibly high standards with women, and girls probably would not see anything with me.

My standards with women: I want someone I can talk to, someone that understands me and I can understand them, someone that won't judge me, but rather accept me for who I am. I don't want some dumb broad that uses her looks for attention and would try to just make me spend all my money on her. I don't want someone who drinks all the time, it's been a huge trend in what I've seen so far in women at college, and it's pretty disgusting in my opinion. Looks aren't everything, but I don't want some repulsive girl that doesn't take care of herself, is orange, or tries too hard to be good looking. Weird enough, being the music nerd that I am, I'd rather not want a girl that listens to metal, but something different. It'd be pretty boring now that I think about it. A girl that would go with me to metal concerts would be amazing too, but that is also very improbable with the other standards I have.

Now, onto me. I wear band shirts on a near daily basis, I'm cynical at times, I am very shy, I'm always listening to music, I listen to mostly metal, I tend to be alone a lot, I'm leaning towards the chubby side with my weight/appearance, and I'm not the best looking either. Maybe that's me just being very pessimistic and self conscious to an extent, but that's what I think. I have grown out my hair since the summer, and it's not long or anything, but I look better than I ever did before. I basically don't look like a pedophile terrorist anymore, which is good.

To sum it up, if I do find a woman to have a relationship, I'll be very surprised with myself. Girls may have liked me throughout my life, maybe now as well, but if I don't see some notification of that, I just think that girls think I'm repulsive. That may also be true. I think that girls see the opposite of who I am, but I've come to this: I'm not changing who I am for anyone. Even if who I am doesn't get me any girls whatsoever, I'm happy with who I am. I have very close friends and family that understand and accept who I am, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Even if I am alone at Northern now since some of my good friends here withdrew from the school, I'm still having a fun time. As long as I have my music, I'm in a whole other world where nothing else matters and I'm just having a good time.

If the surprising event that a relationship opportunity comes up with someone that can suit some of my standards, there is no way I'm letting it pass by. But until then, I will continue to enjoy life, even if it means being single. If there's anything I've learned from wasting away the first 17 years of my life playing video games and crying all day, it's to live life to it's fullest and never take it for granted. I do that now, and ever since the summer, I've been having a blast, even if some days or weeks just shit on me. The concerts I go to are a good way to relieve myself since I'm with people that share the same interests as me, and I continue to meet and reunite with new and awesome people there.

This is just something I wanted to get out. Maybe one day I'll find someone, but if I don't, I'm not letting it get in the way with my life. I'm lucky enough to be in college now and have an awesome family that loves me and supports my life and have great friends that accept me for who I am. I don't know what I'd do without these people, even if I don't see them throughout the week while I'm at college.

Looking back, I used to think of suicide and just bitch about how life sucks. Now, I love life and look forward to tomorrow everyday. I wake up every morning saying, "Today is going to be a good day," and even if I know something coming up that day is going to shit all over it, it's not getting to me and ruining my day.

I will end this with one of the many great quotes from one of the most talented and smartest musicians of all time.

"There are no limits, you are only limited by however far you want to be limited." - Chuck Schuldiner

Now Playing:
Artist: Warbringer
Song: Total War
Album: War Without End

Easy week was easy

2010-03-25T20:29:00.000-07:00

Today was decent, I guess. My theater exam was really easy and I'm certain I got an A or B on it. Other than that, nothing special happened academic wise.

What was nice though, was on my way to math class, some guy went up to me, asked if I was in a hurry, which was a good call for him, and I wasn't so I listened to what he had to say. He said he was following the words of Jesus Christ, or that's what I think he said. Something to do with Christianity. Now, I'm not that religious of a person. I'm caught between Greek Orthodox, Agnostic, and Atheist and it's not my thing to be honest. But what he had to say was great, and I'm not being sarcastic. He guessed that I do a lot with music because I was listening to music at the time and asked if I played guitar and wrote music. I said that I did play guitar but never got around to writing music. It was pretty impressive that he guessed that, he also guessed that I had 2 older brothers, which was strange since I only have a younger sister. But he also told me to not live life the way I'm expected to, and I'm way ahead of that statement and told him that, which he agreed on. He was one of the coolest guys I've met on campus, and was very nice and it makes me happy to see that people like him are going around through the day trying to make their days better, which is what he said he was doing when talking to me. This is how a proper Christian should act, not like those fundamentalist scumbags. I really appreciated the kindness and encouragement from him and told him to have a great day as well. That was a neat highlight of my day.

What wasn't a good thing though was that one of my really good friends who I met here at college withdrew from the University. He missed too many days of classes and had to withdraw to avoid getting kicked out. That sucks. I feel bad for him, and he was also one of the coolest people I've met here who also listens to the majority of music I listen to. But the good thing about it is that he's gonna be working a lot at Lou Milnati's back where he lives, so he'll have enough money to go to the Overkill and Cannibal Corpse shows next month, and any other future shows. But that sucks for the most part. At least he has a job back home, so that's really good for him.

And that sums up my day today. It had its ups and downs, but was decent overall. I just have a real short math quiz tomorrow on one subject which I actually understand, so it shouldn't give me too much trouble. What's planned for the rest of the night - Soul Silver! It's really helped the week go by fast, and I'm gonna try to avoid playing it this weekend back, home so it seems to go by slow. All I have planned for the weekend is to work and hopefully get Obituary tickets. I'm hoping tomorrow will be a good day, this week has been great so far.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Metallica
Album: Master of Puppets

Now Playing:
Artist: Between the Buried and Me
Song: Swim to the Moon
Album: The Great Misdirect

Blech

2010-03-24T20:59:00.000-07:00

Today was good. My COMS class got canceled, so that was neat. I also didn't have English at all, and my math teacher got into a car accident which really sucks. I hope he's fine, he's a good teacher and an awesome guy. We had a substitute today for math who was the teacher for the other side of my math class, and he had no idea what we were doing so I left about 15 minutes in. So really, I only had one class today when I usually have four! The remaining time of the day I played more Soul Silver and that's what I plan on doing tomorrow as well, aside from my Theater exam which I'm going to study for after the new South Park.

And that's about it. Hopefully I can do good on my Theater exam and have a great day overall.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Ensiferum
Song: Victory Songs

Now Playing:
Nothing! I'm watching the new South Park now!

Yay weather

2010-03-23T19:42:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty good. I didn't really do anything special, just play Pokémon Soul Silver for a good portion of the day. Again, that game is awesome. I plan on doing that for the rest of the night since I don't have anything important tomorrow.

...And that's really it. Again, nothing special happened today, but here's to hoping that something will tomorrow and it will be a great day.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Sodom
Album: Agent Orange

Like Obscura's Cosmogenesis album artwork being one of my favorites, Sodom's logo is one of my favorite logos as well.

Now Playing:
Artist: Ayreon
Song: Comatose
Album: 01011001 (Disc 1) - Y

Soul Silver

2010-03-22T19:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday and today were pretty good. Yesterday I didn't really do anything during the day and worked in the afternoon. I made $50 that night, which was awesome. I'm depositing whatever I can into my bank account next weekend. I'm also working both Friday and Saturday as well, so that's a lot of time taken up, but still good, because I need the money. After I get Obituary tickets, I'm definitely saving up for an Ibanez 7-String guitar. It's going to be one hell of a task, but I think I can do it. There's a Sam Ash about 20 minutes from me apparently, so I'm going to check it out on Saturday and see what they have.

The main highlight of today was me failing my math quiz that I saw coming from a mile away..... Just kidding, I got Pokémon Soul Silver! It's an amazing game and brings back great memories of Gold and Silver. I've made decent progress so far, and since I only have one class tomorrow and no homework, I'm gonna spend whatever free time I have on it. It's better than wasting time on last.fm and playing Solitaire. I've also named my characters and Pokémon after death metal and black metal artists (Dallas, Horgh, Chuck, etc.) so I'm going to have even more fun with this!

That's about it really. I have a Theater test on Thursday which should be easy because we go over what's going to be on the test the class before. Hopefully tomorrow will be good, especially with the improved weather compared to the weekend.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Obscura
Album: Cosmogenesis

This album art is in the Top 5 favorite album covers for me for sure.

Now Playing:
Artist: Between the Buried and Me
Song: Fossil Genera - A Feed from Cloud Mountain
Album: The Great Misdirect

119 days!

2010-03-20T21:49:00.001-07:00

I didn't update last night because I got home from my friend's house at 1 A.M. and went to bed right after. Friday was pretty crappy to start with but got better near the end of work and on. It was good seeing close friends that I haven't seen in a while. Aside from that, nothing really special happened on Friday. I think I bombed my math quiz, but I shall have to see on Monday.

Today was good. I got Iron Maiden tickets! They were listed as $31, but since Ticketmaster is collaborating with LiveNation, thus having those damn service fees, they were $41. I also had to get my friend one too, so I paid $82 total. He gave me $20, which is all he had at the time, so he owes me another $20, but I can wait, it's not that big of a deal. I deposited that along with another $20 from me, so we're both halfway there with paying off our tickets. My sister was generous enough to give me $36 today for driving her everywhere for the past couple of weeks, so I'm gonna deposit $20 of that in the bank to pay off my ticket and wait for my friend to give me his $20. I have to get my money from Friday, and I'm also working tomorrow, so that's more money for me! Hopefully I'll have enough for Pokemon Soul Silver then, which is the next thing I plan on getting. If not, I can wait, it's not my top priority to get it at all. After I do get it, though, the next thing on my list is Obituary tickets. Those are $25 if I remember correctly, which is a sweet deal. I'm sure I'll have enough in a couple of weeks.

Apparently I wasn't working tonight, so I went to my cousin's birthday party. It's always great to see the family gathered together and having fun. I got some dessert for the room back at college, so that's nice.

Because I don't know how late I'm getting off of work tomorrow, I plan on driving back to Northern on Monday morning, so I have to get up at 6 A.M. It's not a big deal, but I have a COMS exam that morning! I'm pretty sure I'm screwed for it, but the speeches and papers I'm doing for that class make up for it, so that's decent.

And aside from all that, the past 2 days were good overall. I'm hoping that tomorrow is going to be good, as well as the upcoming week.

Now Playing:
Artist: Voivod
Song: Chaosmöngers
Album: Dimension Hatross

I did good on my speech?!

2010-03-18T20:03:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty good. Not only do I not have English classes all next week, but I don't have any Geography classes next week as well! So I only have 3 classes on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, 2 classes on Thursday, and 1 class on Tuesday all next week! That's some good time off.

I checked my grade for my informative speech in my COMS class, and I got a B+! I thought it was pretty crappy considering I got it all done at the last second, but I'm very happy with that grade! I have to attend some public speaking event and write a paper on that, and I have no clue what I'm going to do. I'm sure I'll be fine.

And even better news for me, I'm the first to get off tomorrow at work! I managed to work it out with my co workers so I can get off work early and hang out with some of my friends that I haven't seen in quite a while. I'm also working Saturday and Sunday, so I may be able to get Pokémon Soul Silver next week if I get my money. If not, I can still wait.

That's about it for today. I don't have English class tomorrow, so that's pretty nice, but I still have German homework to do and a math quiz to study for. Hopefully those and tomorrow go well.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Overkill
Album: Feel the Fire

Now Playing:
Artist: Obscura
Song: Orbital Elements
Album: Cosmogenesis

Happy St. Patricks Day

2010-03-17T19:49:00.000-07:00

Today was... eh, I guess good. Nothing special happened really. There was nothing going on in my classes which was good I guess because of no work, but still boring.

I decided that I'm getting lawn tickets for Iron Maiden because they're $31 and I'm sure some of my friends will get their tickets later. Seat tickets are $55 and up, which I REALLY don't have the money for. I'm sure the lawn will be fine. After I buy the tickets on Saturday morning, I'm gonna start to save up for Pokémon Soul Silver. I haven't played Pokémon in years, but I get nostalgic with it still, so I'm gonna get it. It's $40, so it won't be that horrible to save up for. Hopefully I can work as much as possible on the weekends to get that.

Today was St. Patrick's day, and I'm sure a good 3/4, if not more, are celebrating by drinking their asses off. I find drinking at college to be incredibly boring, overrated, and cliché. I only really drink with my family, and that's one beer at the most. The gym was pretty much deserted since everyone was drinking by then, so that was awesome. My floor went out too, so it's quiet for once! Yep, St. Patrick's Day distracts everyone away to the parties I find horrible.

One thing that gets me pissed off is that it's supposed to be in the fucking 30s next week! It's 60 all of a sudden this week, and it just fucking drops 30 degrees the next week?! Ugh, I was planning on bringing up my guitar to play outside next week too! Fucking bullshit.

And that's about it. I'm hoping tomorrow will be good. I don't have anything planned out, so we'll see what the day has in store for me.

Album I listened to while working out (St. Patrick's Day edition!):
Artist: Gama Bomb
Album: Tales from the Grave in Space

Now Playing:
Artist: Gorguts
Song: Elusive Treasures
Album: From Wisdom to Hate

I need money!

2010-03-16T19:51:00.000-07:00

Today was good as well. It was also the best day outside this year so far. It was high 50s low 60s, and holy crap was it awesome! I didn't even need to wear a hoodie! I'm hoping it stays like this! It's supposed to be even better the rest of the week, which is awesome!

Nothing really happened in my classes today, which is no surprise. I dread going to these damn auditorium classes, they bore me to death. I don't think I have anything going on tomorrow in my classes, which is good.

One sort of bad thing is that I was rescheduled to work on Friday instead of Saturday this weekend, and my friends from other colleges are gonna be back on Friday and I was planning on hanging out with them. Even worse is that I have to close on Friday. Right now I'm working it out so that I can work on Saturday. I haven't seen some of my friends in a long time, and it would be nice to see them again this weekend. I'm sure it will work out good. Also, I'm only working every other Saturday instead of every Saturday, which is horrible timing, because I need money! I want to get Iron Maiden tickets first before anything because I'm certain it will sell out, so I need those tickets! I'm sure I can fill in for some people so I can get money.

So overall, today was good. I'm sure that the work stuff will get better and I can make more money. Hopefully tomorrow will be good like today and yesterday.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Unearth
Album: The March

Now Playing:
Artist: Unearth
Song: The Chosen
Album: The March

o_O

Good start to the week!

2010-03-15T19:51:00.000-07:00

Today was awesome! I had to give my speech about the history of metal music today, which I should have given on Friday the 5th, but due to scheduling conflicts I got pushed back. But aside from that, the speech went great! I think I did decent and got a good grade. I had to make some last minute changes last night with it too. I got rid of the black metal part altogether and put in a part about how metal music impacted society, which I thought was a big improvement.

I had a German quiz today which I know I bombed, but I don't care really, I'm sure I'll do good in the class because I ace the homework and tests which make up most of the grade. And I got an 84% on my math exam from before break! I'm extremely happy about that because I'm retaking my discrete math course now and it's good to see that I've improved a lot with it.

I also worked out for the first time in over a week, and holy crap I was sweating like crazy. This is what happens when I don't do anything for a week and a half and come back to working out. I took it easy on the weights because I didn't want to risk tearing anything, but I'm sure I'll be back to my usual routine soon enough. I'm tired as hell right now from working out, and I'm lucky because I don't have anything due for tomorrow, so I can relax.

Overall, today was great. I'm hoping tomorrow will be the same and that the week goes by fast.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Death
Album: Human

Now Playing:
Artist: Liquid Tension Experiment
Song: Kindred Spirits
Album: Liquid Tension Experiment

Weekend Recap - Awesome!

2010-03-14T19:14:00.001-07:00

I got back home this morning from Chicago, and it was one hell of a weekend! It was great spending time with friends and checking out new places for me. There was also some great food downtown as well! I had a great time overall, and while I probably won't go back for the rest of the school year because of everyone's schedule, I do hope to go back next year!

That sounds like a basic summary of what happened at UIC, but I wanna get into talking about the Kreator concert!

The picture gets cut off in the blog. For anyone who actually reads this, click on the picture to see the whole thing!

This show was at The Bottom Lounge, which as I was told, was in "the ghetto." Bullshit, it was a sketchy area at most because it was night time and foggy as well. Nothing bad about it really. I've never been there before, but I can say now that it's a nice venue! They're lenient about rules; as long as you're not a dumbass you're fine. I don't think they allowed crowdsurfing at all, but no one did it to begin with, probably because the stage was very small. The place didn't really seem full, which was strange. I'd think that there would be a lot more people there. The show clearly didn't sell out. Onto the bands now...

Lazarus A.D. - I've been listening to them for a while now and liked what I heard, so I was looking forward to them live. They did put on a good show, but the crowd wasn't really into them. A few pits broke out but that's about it, which was pretty weak. Other than that, I look forward to seeing them with Overkill in April again!

Evile - Like Lazarus A.D., I have been listening to Evile for a while too, and just like Lazarus yet again, the crowd sucked. I was surprised, Evile makes some damn good music but no one really got into it. I thought they were awesome and I can't wait to see them again with Overkill next month as well!

Nachtmystium - I didn't really like them. They weren't terrible, but not good to me as well. What was more surprising was that more people liked them better than Lazarus and Evile. There were bigger pits for Nachtmystium and a better response from the crowd even though they didn't interact with them whatsoever. It was weird.

Voivod - I heard bad things about them live, but really, they put on one hell of a show! Everyone was into them and the pits really started to go when they came on. I never really listened to Voivod before, but I am now and I really like what I hear! It makes me glad when a band I have never heard of or listened to impresses me live and gets me into their music. Their stage presence was amazing and they performed well. If they ever come back to Chicago, I'm definitely going to see them again!

Kreator - The headlining act, and what do you know? They were awesome! The pits were at their full potential, and I think I lost 10 pounds altogether that night from it! They had an amazing set and performed flawlessly, which was basically what I expected from them. Before they came on, the guy doing sound check for their instruments got into a fight with a kid throwing stuff at him and both got kicked out of the venue, which was pretty damn funny. But anyway, Kreator is definitely in the top 5 greatest live bands that I've seen for me.

So overall, it was an amazing show. The crowd could be better, especially for the opening acts, but I still met some cool people who were into the show, one of which whom I mistook for the frontman of Evile. That was pretty dumb and embarrassing on my part, but I didn't really care. Hopefully Kreator comes back to Chicago and I see them again!

And that sums up that show. I did see Titus Andronicus the next day at Reckless Records in Wicker Park. It was a free show and two of my friends love them, so we went. I couldn't really see them because so many people were in front of us in the store, but the sound was great and they still put on a great show nonetheless. It was nice seeing them for free, and I'd love to see them again, but they're coming to Chicago next month on a Wednesday, and I don't really have the time or money for it, but whatever, maybe some other time.

That was basically my weekend. It was one hell of a weekend, and a great spring break as well! I'm covered with new music to listen to for a while now and I hope this week goes by fast. I have to present a speech tomorrow which I should have done on the 5th, but scheduling conflicts with my class ruined it for me. I gotta run through it a couple times tonight and tomorrow morning to get it right. Hopefully that and the rest of the day goes well for me.

Hurr durr I forgot about this...

Now Playing:
Artist: Voivod
Song: Nuclear War

UIC/Kreator tomorrow!

2010-03-11T21:10:00.000-08:00

Today, like the past 2 days, was boring as hell. It was pretty much raining all day which made it very gloomy outside, so I had nothing to do really. I did make big progress on The Great Plains, the song I'm learning on guitar, so that's good. I just can't wait for tomorrow though, I'm going to UIC! I'm planning on leaving tomorrow morning around 10:30, the train is at 10:45. I don't know what I'm doing when I get there with my friend, since my friend that we're visiting more than likely has class, but at 5 P.M. we're gonna start walking towards The Bottom Lounge venue, which is where I'm seeing Kreator! It's supposed to rain all weekend, but that won't stop me from having fun! On Saturday I'm seeing Titus Andronicus for free at a record store and then we're going to Kuma's Corner after. I originally planned on leaving Sunday morning, but my friend is gonna go home Saturday night after Kuma's, so I'm going with him. It's a better idea now that I think about it.

I won't be on at all from when I leave tomorrow to when I get back Saturday night. When I do get back though, I'll write about my weekend and the two concerts I went to. It's gonna be a fun weekend!

Now Playing:
Artist: Devin Townsend
Song: The Greys

Blah

2010-03-10T21:43:00.000-08:00

I forgot to post a blog last night, but there really wasn't any need to, yesterday was boring as hell and I literally did nothing. Today was decent at least, but still rather boring. I went to Woodfield Mall and got a new shirt from Spencer Gifts that says "Emo is just an excuse for boys to act like bitches" and has a guy pinching a heart above it. I'd post the picture here but I can't find one. It was $14, so it was totally worth it for that awesome of a shirt. Aside from that I did nothing today.

I'm actually leaving for UIC Friday morning due to schedule conflicts with some friends, but it's fine with me, and now that I think about it, it makes more sense to leave Friday morning. In the meantime, I'm hoping tomorrow will be productive and fun, today and yesterday were pretty damn boring.

Now Playing:
Artist: Strapping Young Lad
Song: Zen

Summer tours galore!

2010-03-08T21:44:00.000-08:00

Today was pretty good. I deposited $114 in my debit card and then went to Fox Valley mall and got a new wallet that came with a chain which I plan on using for concerts only. I really have no need to have it on me at all times, but only for concerts so I won't lose it. I also ordered a Necrophagist shirt, which looks incredibly sick.

Those are the seven deadly sins on the back. I find it amazing and wondered why I didn't pick this up at Summer Slaughter when I had the chance. Probably because I didn't start listening to them (and 3/4 of the lineup) until after the show. Oh well. I'm trying to sell all the shirts I don't wear and getting new shirts from Zumiez or any other good band shirts.

Another thing I spent my money on was Pestilence tickets! Pestilence are doing a tour of the U.S. over the summer for the first time in 16 years! What's better is that Warbringer and Vital Remains are supporting acts! They're coming to Chicago on June 14th, and I already got my tickets! They were $18, so that's a great price. It's at Reggie's Rock Club, which I've never been to, so that should be a fun experience.

I didn't really do anything else for the rest of the day. I got a Nintendo 64 emulator for my computer and Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time for it, so that will keep me occupied when I'm bored at college. I also played my guitar for the first time in a few weeks, which was pretty fun. I've been busy so I had no time for it really. I'm trying to learn The Great Plains by Scale the Summit, which is going well so far, but I only started about an hour ago. I'll probably pick up where I left off with it tomorrow when I can actually use my amp.

That's about it. I'm hoping tomorrow will be good and productive for me.

Now Playing:
Artist: Overkill
Song: Bleed Me

This beats yesterday

2010-03-07T19:46:00.000-08:00

Today was really good, especially compared to yesterday. I got new jeans and a hoodie which both fit awesome! I also got a small hair trim, which I thought was unnecessary but was actually helpful. Hopefully my hair grows out better now, which I'm sure it will. I also saw The Crazies, which wasn't really good in my opinion. Some of the deaths were interesting, but the plot overall just sucked. I would not recommend seeing it to anyone who actually reads this. But I did see it with some of my friends, so that made it better. I also saw the trailer for the Nightmare on Elm Street remake, and that comes out on April 30th, the day after I see Cannibal Corpse. If I survive Cannibal Corpse, I'm planning on seeing it on opening night with a friend.

I'm home alone for the next 3-4 days because I have spring break while my sister has school and my parents have work, so I'm home alone for a while. I plan on going to Fox Valley Mall tomorrow during the day to just look around and be somewhat productive, but I'll more than likely end up getting a new wallet with a chain, because I actually need that.

That's about it for today. I'm hoping tomorrow goes great as well, maybe I'll hang out with people tomorrow night too.

Now Playing:
Artist: Explosions in the Sky
Song: Greet Death

From Saturday Night

2010-03-07T07:34:00.000-08:00

I got home last night at 12:30 and went to bed right after, so I didn't have time to update this last night. Yesterday pretty much sucked. Work was brutal, I kept fucking up all over the place and I was there til 11:30 when I actually needed to be somewhere. I didn't do anything before besides drive people around places, so that didn't help my day. The one good thing about my day was that the weather was amazing, so I could actually have my windows down when I drive.

That's about it really. I don't plan on working for a while, maybe Monday, but my co worker has to get back to me. I hope today isn't as crappy as yesterday.

Now Playing
Artist: Enslaved
Song: Yggdrasil

Spring Break!!!!

2010-03-05T22:28:00.000-08:00

Today had its ups and downs, one of the downs being me staying up til 2 A.M. working on my informative speech and not being able to present today. There were too many people presenting today and there wasn't enough time for me to present. Good going on the teacher's part. Now I get to present on the 15th, after break!

Other than that, nothing special happened in my classes other than half of the class not showing up to German and English. I didn't go to math because I wanted to get home as soon as possible, and we were literally doing nothing today as far as I know. But that doesn't matter now, I have a week off of school! I plan on working for the first half of break and going to University of Illinois in Chicago on the night of the 11th til the morning of the 14th.

Work was okay, I had to close again which kinda sucks but it gets me more money which I need for concert tickets. I plan on getting Iron Maiden tickets the day they come out and Obituary tickets at some point.

I also noticed that I can only take 2 days off of work this summer for my summer job as opposed to 3 the past 2 years. That kinda helps, since the 2 I initially had planned to take off were Thursday and Sunday, so I'm done there! I'm gonna have to drop that work schedule sheet off on Monday or something.

That pretty much sums up my day. Tomorrow should be decent, I don't plan on doing anything really other than going to the White Chocolate Factory restaurant with my dad, so that's gonna be fun, that place is awesome! I'm also gonna ask my dad if I can borrow his L.A. Fitness pass for the week because I want to keep on working out over break, or at least Sunday through Thursday. Friday could count as a work out because I'm seeing Kreator that day, and I plan on going in the pit for them and whoever plays. Yep, this next week is gonna be great!

Now Playing:
Artist: Orphaned Land
Song: Halo Dies (The Wrath of God)

Now I can't wait for the summer even more!

2010-03-04T19:45:00.001-08:00

Today was pretty good. I bombed the hell out of the Theater quiz I took, but I just looked now and saw that I got a 96% on my Theater test I took a week ago! I'm happy about that! The math exam went decent. I'm hoping for a C at most, and I'm sure I did that, but if I did better that would be great as well. Tomorrow I just have my speech about the history of metal music to give at 9 A.M., 3 more classes to go to and I'm done! I'm sure that no one is gonna be in any of my classes tomorrow. They all probably want to start spring break early, to be honest, I don't blame them. But I want to do good with my grades and college career so I'm going to my classes.

After I'm done with my classes I have to go straight to work, which is good, I really need the money now because (this is what made my day so much better)......

IRON MAIDEN AND DREAM THEATER ARE TOURING OVER THE SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!

They're coming to Tinley Park on Sunday, July 18th! I'm so happy I decided to take off Sundays from my work schedule! I plan on getting really good seat tickets, which will probably cost me at least $60, but it's totally worth it to see two awesome bands in one show. Maiden kicked ass two years ago when I saw them, and they're gonna do it again this summer! I can't wait!

That's about it for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be good, and I'm sure it will be.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Municipal Waste
Album: The Art of Partying

Coincidentally enough, there are a shit ton of parties going on tonight because of spring break, but I'm not going because they are crap. I might rant about them in another blog when I feel more up to it, but right now I just wanna relax and then practice my speech.

Now Playing:
Artist: Frank Zappa
Song: Son of Mr. Green Genes

Math exam tomorrow... Oh boy

2010-03-03T19:41:00.001-08:00

Today was... meh. Pretty boring actually, probably because English got canceled and that's a fun class because of all the discussions we have. Aside from that, I aced my German test, so that's cool. However, I'm not looking forward to the Math exam I have tomorrow. It's gonna be a pain in the ass and I gotta start studying once I'm done with this post. I also have a theater quiz tomorrow, but that's easy stuff, so I'm not worried.

In other good news, the weather is significantly improving, meaning that it's getting warmer out and there's no more snow to be expected! Speaking of which, I'm no longer sick! I guess that "meh" was more of a good when describing my day overall.

So tomorrow is going to be fairly busy. I gotta print out the remaining slides for Geography, go to Geography, study for theater a bit, practice my speech for Friday, go to theater, practice my speech for Friday, take my math exam, and more than likely practice my speech more. Yeah, what a fun day I have in store for me! Hopefully everything goes well, especially with my math exam.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Augury
Album: Fragmentary Evidence

Now Playing:
Artist: Fear Factory
Song: Christploitation

Spring break come on!

2010-03-02T19:44:00.000-08:00

Today was like a reverse bell I guess... It started off great (I got a Shamrock shake!) and then went to shit in the middle, but during and after my work out it got better, and I'm feeling good now. I didn't really do shit in the two classes I had today. I did have to record my speech which I had finished 10 minutes prior to going to record. For whatever reason, the people in the video lab said I did really good, but I thought it was shit because really, that was my second time going through that speech, and the first time wasn't so spectacular. But whatever, it's 25 points regardless of how shitty I did, so I don't care. By Friday, the day I have to present, I'll have my speech performed better.

And really, that's about it. I'm gonna be studying like a motherfucker tomorrow for my math exam on Thursday. Aside from that, I hope tomorrow is gonna be good.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Amon Amarth
Album: Twilight of the Thunder God

Now Playing:
Artist: Between the Buried and Me
Song: Obfuscation

Spring is approaching!

2010-03-01T19:57:00.000-08:00

Today started off like shit but got better throughout the day. It started off like shit because I was sick as hell today with a sore throat and a stuffy nose. However, I did take good care of myself today. I ate a lot of soup (including my Grandma's!) and drank a lot of fluids. The sore throat went away and hopefully the stuffy nose will tomorrow as well. I usually get this way if the weather has a dramatic change, like from winter to spring in this case. The weather is supposed to warm up throughout the weeks and not go back down from what I hear, so that's awesome! The winter got old now, bring on the warm weather so I can finally blast music out of my car and not have to wear a hoodie all over the place!

I have to finish my outline and powerpoint for my informative speech tonight because I have to record it tomorrow in the COMS lab in the afternoon. I don't have to do good at all, but at least I can get something started. Other than that, I don't really have anything important to do tomorrow other than some skit that my friend came up with in like 5 minutes for Theater. It's 5 points for attempting it, so it's worth the bullshitting.

The Shamrock Shakes are back at McDonalds! I'm gonna go get one tomorrow morning if I have time, they're so good! McDonald's finally produces something that's awesome, but of course it's only for half a month.

That's about it for today. Hopefully I'll be feeling better tomorrow morning and it'll be a good day.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Children of Bodom
Album: Follow the Reaper

Now Playing:
Artist: Anaal Nathrakh
Song: So Be It

Good Weekend

2010-02-28T19:08:00.000-08:00

Today was good, I went to the good mall and got a DC Shoes shirt. I'm trying to sell most of the band shirts I don't wear and getting other shirts, and the occasional band shirt. I'm thinking of getting a Suffocation, Necrophagist, or Frank Zappa shirt next. Probably not Kreator at the show, I"ve heard that they're $25 and more, and I'll never spend that much for a shirt. I did manage to sell my Born of Osiris shirt on Friday, I still gotta get my $10 from my friend. That's how much I'm selling them for, just $10. Hopefully I'll make some profit, I've got a lot to sell. If not through people, then through eBay.

This week shouldn't be too bad, I just have a math exam on Thursday and a speech to give on Friday. I still gotta go over the topic with my COMS teacher tomorrow morning, I'm not 100% sure about it, but it has to do with the history of metal music.

I also found out something interesting today. One of my Uncles told me that on my mom's side of the family, we all don't care what people think of us, we don't follow people, and we just be ourselves. I think that the way I act now, which is basically exactly that, is hereditary from what my Uncle told me. That's a good thing, it's never a good thing to be a follower. I always say to people to be themselves and never change for anyone. That's the biggest form of selling out, and sell outs fucking suck.

So today, and this weekend in general was pretty good. This week will hopefully go by fast so I can go on spring break!

Now Playing:
Artist: Frank Zappa
Song: Keep It Greasey

$$$$!

2010-02-27T22:46:00.000-08:00

Today was actually very good despite not going to many places! I went to the bank and deposited $82 and got my Kreator tickets and Mastodon/Between the Buried and Me tickets! Now I'm set for those two, Overkill, and Cannibal Corpse! I feel incredibly accomplished!

Work was pretty crazy, especially as opposed to last night. Turns out I got $18 total from last night. Not that much, but more than I expected. I also wondered, what if my summer job is like this? By that I mean, the busier it is, the more I get paid. If that was the case, holy fuck anyone working there would be rich as hell. The total amount of money I have saved up now from working the past 2 days and my dad's friend being so generous is $78! I don't know what I'm gonna do with that, but more than likely save it up and take some with me when I go to Chicago in two weeks. I might save up for an Ibanez 7 string guitar, that would be awesome to have.

To make the day even better, my co worker may be able to hook me up with a job at Radio Shack! He just became a manager there, so he has to leave my job now for it, but he tells me that it pays well and where he works, there's an open spot for a part time employee! I better get on that tomorrow!

So all in all, today was great! Hopefully tomorrow will be better, aside from going back to college. I dread staying in my dorm, but it's nice when I'm out of there, whether I'm going to classes or just chilling in the student center.

Now Playing:
Artist: Scale the Summit
Song: Age of the Tide

Finally over!

2010-02-26T20:28:00.000-08:00

At last, this week from hell has come to an end! To be honest, it was a decent week for the most part, but I had 3 exams, a quiz, and a paper due. I'm so glad that it's all out of the way now. My German test was a joke, and my math quiz went okay I guess. I had to rush one of the problems because I was gonna be late for my ride to my grandma's to get my car to go to work and home. But aside from that, today was decent.

Work was pretty slow, what with Lent going on, no one can eat meat on Fridays. I'm gonna get paid like $15 in tips from tonight, but whatever. Tomorrow is probably gonna be busy, and I hope, I need the money!

Speaking of money, I no longer have to save up for Cannibal Corpse tickets! I checked Ticketmaster last night and they were finally up there, and to make things better, I could use the remainder of my gift card for them! So that was an awesome way to end last night (this was after I wrote last night's post)! Tomorrow I plan on getting Kreator tickets and Mastodon/Between the Buried and Me tickets, so I'm pretty much set for concerts through May!

That pretty much sums up today, tomorrow should be good as well. After I deposit money in my bank account and order my tickets I'll probably go to the mall out of boredom and do whatever until I have to go to work. Should be fun.

Now Playing:
Artist: Skeletonwitch
Song: Cast Into the Open Sea

Come on weekend!

2010-02-25T19:22:00.000-08:00

Today was decent (again). The geography exam I took went pretty well, I'm sure I at least got a C on it, or so I hope. I really don't care about that class, I'll be happy with a C.

Tonight I saw a school play, Metamorpheses, (I think that's how it's spelled), and I thought it was weird, but pretty good. Some parts had me zoning out but the way they interpret Greek Mythology stories through acting was nice. Comparing it to Private Lives, another play I saw about a month ago, I prefer Private Lives. Maybe it was the location and audience, sort of like comparing it to a concert. I like smaller venue concerts such as the House of Blues rather than larger venues such as Allstate Arena, and Private Lives was in a smaller location than Metamorpheses. It's a strange analogy. The only really bad thing about it was that it got in the way of my workout schedule, so I didn't get to work out tonight. Oh well, I gotta do what I gotta do.

I found out that my math exam was actually next Thursday, March 4th, rather than the Friday after, so that's actually a relief. The earlier the better so I can get it done with, and I have a speech to present for COMS that day. I gotta work on it over the weekend, because I gotta go to record it on Tuesday in a lab for a grade. It doesn't matter how crappy I do it there, but as long as I have something I'm happy. Tomorrow I have my sources for English due, I only have to find one more and I'm done, so that's good. I also have a German test tomorrow as well. The last German test I had I got a 95% on, so I think I'll do fine if I study a bit. So really, the only two major things I have next week are my Math exam and COMS speech, which I should be good for as long as I prepare well.

So overall, today was decent. There was a studio update from Atheist saying that everything is going well, so I'm really looking forward to their new stuff and a tour! I'm hoping tomorrow goes well with my German test and math quiz, which they should as long as I study.

Now Playing:
Artist: MC Chris
Song: I Want Candy

Yeah, the song from Aqua Teen Hunger Force. Hell yes.

This weather SUCKS

2010-02-24T19:33:00.000-08:00

I think I've said this before here before... but in case I didn't, FUCK THE WINTER. I'm sick of the snow, cold and wind chill. I just wanna stop bundling up and shit and blast music out of my car in nice weather... :( Hopefully March will bring better weather, the weather now is just getting on my nerves and got old.

Aside from that, today was decent. Nothing special really, except I did see a guy with an Arsis shirt and told him he had an awesome shirt. Soon I will meet all..... Oh I don't know.... all 30 metalheads that go to my school of thousands of people. Seriously, I'm sure that about 80% of people here, if not more listen to just rap. And not old school decent rap like Public Enemy or Notorious B.I.G., I mean Lil Wayne and other watered down, processed, autotuned, special and sound effect added bullshit that people have the nerve to call rap. All it is is sound. Might as well call it attempted, botched ambient music. Just had to get that out.

I've been listening to a lot of Opeth lately, especially from Blackwater Park, Deliverance and my personal favorite, Damnation. I listened to Damnation today and felt different than when I do with heavier music. It made me feel real calm and relaxed, but that's really expected from that album. I'm probably gonna be listening to it a lot more now, but I wanna find other music like it too.

Tomorrow is gonna be busy. I have a Geography exam, which I'm probably boned for, so I gotta study a bit tonight. I also have a play to go to later that night, which will probably get in the way of my work out schedule, so I probably won't be able to work out that night. That's what happened last night, but oh well. At least I'm going with other people, so that's cool.

And that about sums up my thoughts now. Hopefully tomorrow goes great for me and I do good on that Geography exam and the day goes by fast.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Mastodon
Album: Blood Mountain

Now Playing:
Artist: Iron Maiden
Song: Can I Play With Madness

Busy busy

2010-02-23T19:58:00.000-08:00

I took one of the four exams I have planned to take today, this one was for theater. It was a joke, like I said before, my teacher had us ask questions one day and he'd say if it would be on the test. So I'm happy knowing that I did great on it. Now I have a Geography exam this Thursday, a German test this Friday, and a Math exam next Friday. But that's not all! I also have to do 12 annotated citations for English due Friday, but he wants us to have a complete copy by tomorrow, so it's really due tomorrow now. I also have to give an informative speech for COMS next Friday as well. I still have to decide a topic for it... For now it's either How to Survive a Metal Concert or A Brief History of Metal Music. Either way, I'll be scaring the crap out of my class with my speech. It's gonna be a busy 2 weeks.

I'm working on Friday and Saturday this weekend, so hopefully I can get money for Cannibal Corpse tickets. That's all I really need now anyway since I already have money for Kreator and Mastodon/Between the Buried and Me.

I don't think the University of Illinois trip is happening because it's an unofficial St. Patrick's Day when I plan on going there, so security there is tight as hell. Unless by some divine miracle my friends can find a place not in the dorms to stay, we're not going. The security will fine anyone who is not a student at U of I and is in the dorms during Unofficial. Oh well, if anything, I'll be working if I don't end up going.

Short blog , but nothing really special happened today, but was still a decent day. Hopefully tomorrow brings more fun and excitement.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Strapping Young Lad
Album: City

Now Playing:
Artist: Warbringer
Song: Abandoned By Time

These are gonna be the longest 2 weeks of my life...

2010-02-22T19:28:00.000-08:00

Today was pretty good, that geography homework I missed last week got put back up online by some divine miracle, apparently my teacher decided to give an extension. I'm assuming he did that because not a lot of people did it (myself included) and teachers do not like to fail students. So that's like a second chance for me, and I did great on the homework, I got a 9/10!

I decided not to go to the Unearth show, it's not really worth my time and the opening bands are horrible in my opinion. It saves me money and time anyway. I finally did get enough money to get Kreator tickets and Mastodon/Between the Buried and Me tickets though! I'm gonna do that this weekend. I'm hopefully working this weekend, so I can get money for Cannibal Corpse tickets as well. Also, Fear Factory announced some U.S. tour dates, nothing close to the midwest at all but there are more to come soon, so hopefully Chicago will be on that bill.

These next 2 weeks are gonna be hell. I'm loaded up the ass with papers, exams, quizzes and a speech. I'm gonna be very busy, but I can manage it. It'll be worth it in the end.

So overall, today was great. Hopefully tomorrow won't be too bad, I only have a theater exam which I'm gonna study for later tonight. My teacher in that class basically gave the class the exam questions and answers on Thursday, so I should be fine as long as I study those.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: All Shall Perish
Album: Awaken the Dreamers

Now Playing:
Artist: Pink Floyd
Song: Dogs

Back from Indiana!

2010-02-21T12:19:00.000-08:00

Well I just got back from an awesome weekend at Indiana University visiting a friend with 7 other people! Overall, I had an amazing time there. The drives there and back were a lot more fun than I thought. It was about a 4 to 4 1/2 hour drive each way, and I was one of the drivers, so I was tired as hell arriving and coming back home now. On the way there, we missed like 3 exits because the Computer Unit Navigation & Travel GPS, or the CUNT, fucked up and we didn't see the exits on the road. But it relocated us and we got to IU just fine, but like half an hour later than the other car where the other 4 people were. Basically, our car was 4 guys, 1 car, and a CUNT.

The most fun day had to be Saturday, where we went to my friends' aunt's house about "20 minutes" from IU. Turns out it was an hour away, but still worth the trip. It was out in the middle of nowhere, covered in snow, slush and ice, and as my friend put it, "You could kill someone and dump the body here and no one would find it until the next harvest!" Yet another funny ride there and back. When we did get there though, her family was so welcoming, funny and nice! They gave us lunch there and it was amazing. Ham sandwiches with cheese, beans, and macaroni and cheese! Sure enough, all of us had a very fun time there as well.

We all did go to parties Friday and Saturday, but they were both shitty. The one on Friday ran out of beer and the one on Saturday was bring your own stuff, and I had none to begin with. I don't care for parties to begin with anyway.

There were some bad things too. I was supposed to give my family my grandma's food when I got back to drop and pick up stuff before we left for Indiana, but I left it in my trunk by accident. Luckily the fresh stuff was preserved fine but the leftovers I had went bad. Either way, it ended up fine for the most part. What didn't though was that I had Geography 101 homework that I was supposed to do online and completely forgot about. It was up from Thursday morning to Friday night and I was busy as hell for both days and had no time to do it. Oh well, shit happens. I know I'll probably be getting a C at best in that class but I really don't give a shit. Some people do so bad that they go on academic probation so my GPA won't be completely shitty as long as I do decent in the rest of my classes, which I am. Hopefully I can get my grade in math up a bit. I'm sure I can.

But back to good news, I didn't really spend any money that I made myself in Indiana, just the extra money my dad gave me for food and stuff, so I have $84 combined from what I took to Indiana and what I left home. I can pay for Kreator tickets now! I'm getting Unearth tickets at the last second, hell I don't think I'll end up going to that to begin with. Maybe I could go to University of Illinois (U of I) that weekend... My friend wants my friends and I to go there, so that could work out well. Another college visit I have planned out is University of Illinois in Chicago (UIC) during the week of my spring break. I'm planning on going there the night of Thursday, March 11th and staying there until Sunday morning. Thursday night I'm probably not gonna do shit, just chill with my friend who goes to UIC and my other friend coming up. Friday the 12th though, I'm going to see Kreator! My friend says he can find a way from UIC to the venue which is down the street, probably with public transportation or we all could walk together to the venue just to go around downtown. On Saturday the 13th, we're all going to see Titus Andronicus in a record store in the afternoon. It's a free show so it should be fun. After that, we're going to Kuma's Corner, a metal themed restaurant with awesome burgers! My mom, sister and aunt went there while my other friend and I were at the Dethklok/Mastodon show in October 2009 and they brought me back a burger. It was fucking amazing, I can't wait to actually go there! That's gonna be one hell of a weekend!

Speaking of Mastodon, that's probably the next tickets I'm going to get since I'm very hyped for that show. 18+ and in between my two job training dates, fucking awesome (not being sarcastic). This show is in the middle of May, while Cannibal Corpse, another show I'm planning on going to, is at the end of April, but I'll see what I can do. I just wanna get the Mastodon tickets ahead of time with my friend to be safe.

So overall, I had an amazing time in Indiana. It was nice seeing a good friend, hanging out with other friends, and visiting a new college/state to me. Hopefully we go back at some point in the spring or next year, it'll be fun again! I'm at home now, so I still have to drive back to NIU with my 3 other friends. We're gonna leave in about an hour or so after I eat. Then I'm going to my cousin's birthday party after I drop them off. It's gonna be great, lots of food and a fun time with the family! I'm looking forward to March now, and the rest of spring which brings me new opportunities, more concerts to go to, and hopefully better weather!

Now Playing:
Artist: Pantera
Song: This Love

Indiana Tomorrow!

2010-02-18T19:38:00.000-08:00

Well today was pretty good. In my theater class, the class could ask the teacher any questions about the exam (content wise) next Tuesday and he'd answer them for us and even say if it's on the exam or not! He gave us 39 out of the 50 questions on there, so that was cool.

Right now I'm feeling pretty crappy. Not like depressed or anything, but I'm just tired and out of it. I've been tired all day for some reason. Despite the tiredness, I'm still excited for Indiana University tomorrow! It's gonna be one hell of a time! Hopefully I can make a run at Jewel for energy drinks and snacks before we all leave. 5 hour drive and I'm one of the drivers, this is gonna be interesting.

Unfortunately I have to skip a math quiz tomorrow to get back home in time, but it's worth it in my opinion. I talked to the teacher about it and he said I can't take it early or later, but he told me that he only takes the 10 best scores out of the 13 quizzes we have for the semester for a grade, so that one could be one of the three crappy quizzes. Not the best solution, I'd much rather take it early or later but I'll have to settle for it. My grade should be fine anyway. Other than that, I am going to my other classes, and I still have to do homework for all of them tomorrow. Shouldn't be too bad though.

Apparently my grandma was cooking tonight but I didn't know ahead of time, but I'm having lunch at her house tomorrow before I pick up my 3 other friends to go back home so that makes up for it.

So that's about it for now. I won't be able to update this until Sunday night because I'm not bringing my laptop with, but when I do I'll summarize the weekend here. I'm really looking forward to tomorrow! It's gonna be awesome!

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Protest the Hero
Album: Kezia

Now Playing:
Artist: Slayer
Song: Postmortem

Two in one day? wat

2010-02-17T20:23:00.000-08:00

Just getting out some other thoughts I forgot to say on here earlier today.

I think I'll try to update this every night that I can, if not then, then at some point the next day or whenever I'm available to.

Also about concerts, Obituary is coming to The Rave in Milwaukee on June 3rd. If my work schedule is cool, then I'll be able to go to that for sure!

That's really about it, also I'm gonna post what album I listen to when I work out. I work out every Monday through Thursday to counter my self conscious beliefs of my weight. I think it's working for me and it's good that I'm doing something about it.

Album I listened to tonight while working out:
Artist: Death
Album: Individual Thought Patterns

Now Playing:
Artist: Nile
Song: The Black Flame

This week - Hurry up!

2010-02-17T12:09:00.000-08:00

Well, again, it's been a long time since I've updated this. I'm probably gonna link this in my facebook and last.fm page to get more followers and stuff. This semester has been going well so far, despite the 18 hours (6 classes) I'm taking they're going pretty well. Right now I just want this week to be over because I'm going to Indiana University this weekend with 7 other people to visit a friend there! I know it's going to be one hell of a time! Aside from that, February pretty much sucks. I want it to be over and March to come.

So far I have 6 concerts planned out in the future to go to. Kreator on March 12th, Unearth on March 26th, Overkill/Vader/Warbringer/Evile/etc on April 10th, Cannibal Corpse on April 29th, Mastodon/Between the Buried and Me on May 19th, and Mayhem Festival on July 30th. The two I'm not completely excited for are Unearth and Mayhem Festival. I'm planning on buying Unearth tickets as late as possible in hope of Live Nation selling them real cheap because it's not worth paying the full $30 or so to just see them. The opening bands are deathcore garbage so I'm planning on showing up as late as possible, or when I get done with my last class that Friday and catch the next train downtown. I'm in no hurry for that show whatsoever. And Mayhem Festival, the lineup is just disgusting. Screamo and metalcore garbage with the only 2 bands appealing to me being 3 Inches of Blood and Lamb of God. Unless 3 Inches of Blood tours the U.S. before Mayhem, I may just only go for Lamb of God. If not and I decided to show up late I get to see 3 Inches of Blood opening the show (What the fuck? They deserve a much higher spot) and then Lamb of God. I have 5 hours, maybe more, to do jack shit in between 3 Inches of Blood and Lamb of God. Gah, it's gonna be filled with emo and scene fucktards. Whatever, I have time to think this out.

I've been really good, and lucky lately. I feared that the Mastodon/BTBAM show on May 19th would get in the way of my summer job training, but I got the training schedule a couple days ago, and guess what? They're on May 18th and the 20th. If there is a God, he must love me very much. Words couldn't describe how happy I was.

So basically, I have to work as much as possible when I go home or find another job to afford these tickets. I have $37.50 left on my ticketmaster gift cards but I can't use them on any of the tickets I need because they're either not available on ticketmaster yet or ever, or that the tickets are being sold through another ticket outlet like Ticketweb (Kreator) or Live Nation (Unearth). I think I'll be fin though. That's about it for now. I have math in about half an hour, but I should go anyway despite that I'm skipping the quiz this Friday to go back home early to go to Indiana. But it won't affect my grade, the teacher only takes the 10 best quiz grades out of the 13 quizzes we have weekly, so I'm fine there. Hopefully I'll post more on here when I remember or get the chance.

Now Playing
Artist: Opeth
Song: Godhead's Lament

2009 Survey

2010-01-01T20:34:00.000-08:00

2009: In The Beginning

Where did you go on New Years?:
My friend Adam's house

Who were you with?:
Adam, Mike, Adam's family

Did you kiss anyone on new years?
lol no

Did you make any resolutions?
Not that I remember

2009: All about YOU

Did you change at all this year?:
When July started, hell yes.

Did you dye your hair?:
No

Did you get your hair cut?:
A few times

Did you change your style?:
Yes

Were you in school?:
Yes

Did you get good grades?:
Not really

Did you have a job?:
Yes

Did you drive?:
Yes

Did anyone close to you give birth ?
Not that I know of

Did you move at all?:
No

Did you go on any vacations?:
No

Did you leave the country at all?:
No

2009: Your Love Life

Did you break up with anyone?:
No

Did you meet anyone special?:
No

2009: Friends and Enemies

Did you meet any new friends this year?
Yes

Did any of your friendships end?:
Not that I remember

Did you dislike anyone?:
Yes

Did you make any new enemies?:
lol enemies

Did you resolve any fights?:
No

Who have been your closest friends throughout the year?
The other 3 Dan's, Ryan, Kevin, Eric J, Chris J, Peter, David, Jeff, Kyle, probably missing a lot more

Did you grow apart from anyone?:
I don't think so

Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?:
I don't think so

In 2009 I...
[] broke a promise
[]fallen out of love
[X] lied
[X] went behind your parents back
[] cried over a broken heart
[] disappointed someone close
[X] hid a secret
[X] pretended to be happy
[] kissed in the rain
[]slept under the stars
[] kept your new years resolution
[X] forgot your new years resolution
[] met someone who changed your life
[] met one of your idols
[XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX] changed your outlook on life
[X] sat home all day doing nothing
[X] pretended to be sick
[] left the country
[] almost died
[] given up something important to you
[] lost something expensive
[X] learned something new about yourself
[X] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[X] made a change in your life
[X] found out who your true friends were
[X] met great people
[] stayed up til sunrise
[X] cried over the silliest thing
[X] was never home on weekends
[X] got into a car accident
[X] had friends who were drifting away from you
[] had someone close to you die
[] had a high cell phone bill
[X] spent most of your money on food
[] went to the beach with your best friend
[X] saw a celebrity
[X] gotten sick
[] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[] kissed in/on a car
[] kissed in the snow
[X] celebrated Halloween
[] had your heart broken
[] broke someone else's heart
[] had a stalker
[] mooned someone
[] went over the minutes on your cell phone
[] had a good relationship with someone
[] someone questioned your sexual orientation
[] came out of the closet
[X] done something you've regretted
[] kissed under mistletoe
[] painted a picture
[] wrote a poem
[X] ran a mile (in circle pits LOL)
[] shopped at Hollister or Bench
[] posted a blog on MySpace
[X] listened to music you couldn't stand - Oh dear god do not remind me.
[] went to a sleepover
[X] laughed till you cried
[] laughed till you peed in your pants
[] visited a foreign country
[] cut in a line of waiting people
[] told someone you were busy when you weren't
[] partied to celebrate the new year

1. Have you had any relationships this year?
lol no

2. Have you had your birthday yet?
In July? I guess?

3. Kissed two or more people in the same night?
No

4. Been on a diet?
No

5. Pulled an all nighter?
No

6. Drank Starbucks?
Yes

8. Bought something(s)?
Yes

9. Met someone special who changed your life?
No

10. Been out of the province?
No

11. What are you thinking about?
Figuring out if I can see Until the Light Takes Us on the 8th

12. How did you feel when you woke up today?
Tired

_______

2009: Your BIRTHDAY!

Did you have a cake?
No

Did you get any presents?
Not until a month later lol

2009: Wrap UP:

Was 2009 a good year?
With the exceptions of July, October and November, fuck no.

Do you think 2010 will top 2009?
Yes.

How old were you in 2009?
17-18

What was the best thing that happened to you this year?

MET THE FACELESS AT DENNY'S!!!!!!!!!!!!

What was the worst?
Senior year first semester

Did your outlook on life change?
Yes. Very much.

How so?
I stopped crying about the world hating me and decided "let the world hate me, fuck them, I'm better than that."

Did you make any new friends?
Yes

Did you become closer with old friends?
Yes

Did you date any of your friends?
lol no

Is your best friend the same now as it was at the beginning of the year?
I don't have one best friend

Did you learn who your real friends were?
Yes

Did you fight with any friends? Lose any friends?
Don't think so

Did you break up with anyone?
No

Did you reject anyone?
No

Did you get rejected?
No

How did you handle it?
No

How will you handle it next time?
No

Do you feel more comfortable around the opposite sex if you weren't before?
Yes

Did you have any crushes?
No

Did you fall in love?
No

Do you still like/ or are with the same person as the beginning of the year?
(via Kari) relationship questions are getting on my nerves.

What was the best month this year for you?
July, October, November

What was the worst?
January

Did you get along with your family this year?
For the first half no lol

Did your relationship with members of your family change?
Not really

Did they change you?
Kinda

Are you the same religion you were at the beginning of the year?
lol no

What religion is that? Or isn't that?
Used to be Christian but now I don't follow religion anymore.

Do you see yourself as more religious or spiritual or less?
Less

How did school go this year for you?
High school - shit. College first semester - okay

What grade(s) were you in?
Senior year in high school and freshman in college.

Did you like your teachers? Your school?
My college teachers yes. Fuck DGS and everyone in it.

Do you have regrets about this year?
It could've gotten a lot better for the first half

Did you get your heart broken?
No

Did you get a new car?
No

Go somewhere exciting?
Mayhem Festival and Summer Slaughter lol

Will 2010 be better than 2009?
Yes.

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2010-01-01T10:48:00.000-08:00

So much for remembering to update every night, oh well. New Years was okay, I was at work when it was midnight and I got to leave like 15 minutes after. I don't understand why people would get drunk if they're going to drive later. I'm lucky I didn't encounter any retard drunk drivers on the way back home. But yeah, aside from the last half of the year, specifically the months July, October, and November, 2009 sucked for me. I'm hoping 2010 is better, and with my huge personality change from the summer I'm sure it will be. I'm going to my aunt's house for the annual new years party. Lots of food and fun and stuff, hopefully gonna go snowmobiling too. Happy new year!

First blog

2009-12-28T18:12:00.000-08:00

Well I took the advice of one of my friends (Jake) and actually made a blog to rant and stuff. I'll post this around places so people can read if they want. I'll probably update once a day at the end of the day if I remember. But as of now I am bored as hell. I went sledding today with people and it was fun! Hopefully going tomorrow as well but I have work at 5 PM so I'll have to leave early. I have no idea whats going on tonight but yeah, still bored.

Song playing now: Trivium - The Crusade

Funny thing about that song, I was listening to that in my car when some guy rear ended my car while I was driving to Toyota to get an oil/brake change for my car.